countdown 2010!:):)

OoH LaLa! its the time of the year again!:):) YAY! this time the celebration will be held in our church:D whOohooW! there is going to be fellowship. singing of praises. food. reflection. games. and counting down! haha. can't wait for it! can't miss it! and can't thank God enough for this year's life journey! its been a rollercoaster ride:D

vietnam fever!:D

its a world of a difference in singapore to ho chi minh city! :)) i'm delighted to be back but at the same time wishing that i had more time to explore the rich culture of vietnam:):) i'm happy that we met up with the other families just before christmas. remembering the reason for the season. and dedicated a praise & worship + sharing session to Him. :) everyone gave their humble opinion on their thoughts of vietnam and/or celebrating christmas there. :):) some shared of their regret and was remorseful. but all was well! as uncle shiguang said, this sharing was not coincidental. its God opening the hearts of people to share the load with the bros and sisters around you! for my sharing, i wanted to share abit more then i did but speaking to a group of parents overwhelmed my train of thoughts. therefore the words came out distorted. idea was to share of how caring the vietnamese were (i.e: taking care of the pedestrians) and how fortunate we were as people who are given the opportunity to travel and celebrate christmas overseas. its really saddening to see how their society have moulded them. fighting to earn a living. their despondent faces everytime a bargain made or a sale turned down. slowly but surely erupts into a desperation for sale. bitter and vexed. and multiply this by the number of cheapo customers who can probably afford 4 times more. its a pity. :(

backpacking in vietnam! shiok. and crazy..almost miss my flight back home. what do think? :D

operation anyhow! :):) viet.

my bag is packed and i'm, all ready to go~ :D this is gonna be a blast. straight into the unknown. seeing more of the world. enjoying one part of God's creation! :):) YAY!! and my partner in crime, as always, zee! hahaha! his really quite an ON person. i rmb the time when he was willing to be my first passenger when i didnt had the licence to drive:D oops! heehee. havoc sia. okay! gonna miss the people in Singapore:))

HERE I COME OPERATION ANYHOW!:):)

a song to share:)

On the Side of Me - Corrinne May :)

vibes!:)

here is a joy i would like to share! :) my dad went to the musical:) it was his first and willing one. just now while i was sitting on the beach reflecting, i thought of my family on how we have come a long way. a bitter past it was. and i thanked God for allowing me to know Him. to learn of His ways, to have good brothers and sisters to share my cares, to exercise sacrificial love and to be grateful and contented. if i didnt know Him, i would probably end up blaming the world, hate my father and self-destruct into a hooligan to derive pleasure from taking drugs.

but i cannot say that i'm 100% morphed into mr ideal after knowing Him. honestly how can one grow properly when there's no love between his parents. there's no one to look up to. no idea what a proper relationship is like. his mode of love has always been demonstration of love. actions. actions. actions. maximum thoughts into the actions. necessary words spoken. he doesnt say much in a group coz he believes that most of it is just surface. he enjoys one on one quality time..engaging in deeper conversations.

i'm sorry i give such vibes at times. i'm learning. :)

we're more than this. :) i know.

autobahn.

ever wonder how an elder sister would be like? :) i will tell you. they're usually long winded and naggy. but they offer the wisest of advice and moral encouragement when life's hurdles get in your way. i would like to thank my sister Grace for showing me how we're so easily absorbed into this fallen world and forget about how much we humans need God. thanks for the reminder! :) seek first His knowledge and wisdom. trust in His plans. that's what i'm going to do! ;)

today's preview --> two thumbs up! 5 stars! :D

enjoy this song by anberlin. one of my favourite:)

before tmr:)

phew! ultra ultra long rehearsal today. :S alright man! everything is going superbly well. the costumes, the set-ups, the singing, the lines..etc. the kids' segment was most interesting i think. :) thank God for making this musical a huge success! i do hope hearts will be touched and God's love to transcend amongst His people. my reflections on the musical thus far? hmm..it's been by God's grace that i can attend almost ALL (90percent) of all the rehearsals. i praise Him. organised. at times pressurising which sometimes making it less fun.

YAY! :) package delivered! :):) although the circumstances were kinda inappropriate, somehow words and actions came out naturally.

tuesday. :)

my tuesday's night. :D primary purpose was to go for my make-up rehearsal (if there's spare time) or help out with the shifting of the props here and there. when i was asked, "why you come today?" primary purpose came out only after 2 second of thought. why the delay? coz secondary purpose came up first in my mind. secondary purpose was to give her the present and talk talk with her! :D haha. managed to talk talk abit but didnt manage to give the present and card to her. haiz. it was like ... she's always busy. and me not knowing how to pass it to her. ARGH! i'm such a donkey. ee-aww! ee- aww!

dancing brings out the confidence in people. :D

sunday burnt again:(

what a week!:) the week's duration didnt seemed long even after last sunday's guard duty. :D expanded 1.5 days of my 4 days of OFF during the week. it was a bit of a dilemma whether to take or not...or rather whether it will be approved. thank God a decision was made and it was approved. :) today was my men's passing-out parade. walked 16km last night. i think my knees are going to crack anytime soon. haha. frankly. but it was heartwarming to see them grow and transit from civilian to military. :) oops! back to my offs. during my OFFs, i went for the christmas musical rehearsals! :) YAY! so happy that everything was smooth sailing and organised. thank you Lord! :):) today was the 1st full rehearsal. finally i get the full picture:D flashmob was power-der-ma! power-der-ma coz everyone was putting their heart and soul into it! felt guilty for not being able to rmb everything fully. sadd.

more sad would be tmr's COS duty. haiz..my 2nd sunday in a row burnt. couldnt be utter sadder. i guess i've to spend the time reading the bible on my own and mo4 dao3. and make a birthday card:) hopefully there is a chance to pass it. :x

p.s: i'm thinking something functional. useful. handy. and enjoyable. :) are you thinking what i'm thinking? :D

jeep!:)

POP loh! officially got my jeep licence:) whee! looking back, phew! 28days to learn something new isnt an easy feat especially for those without any prior knowledge about driving. congrats to those who have passed with me!:):) and for those who have not, i part you guys in good faith that you'll pass eventually. passing the test is only ceremonial, its the duty and responsibility thereafter that you uphold that matters! jeep!:D had jeep loads of fun learning. laughing non-stop thru-out the course. memoriable experience. :):) if only pictures could be taken to tell the story... haiz... ohh wells.

now that i've passed out, here comes disaster. the pile of workload and duties waiting for me to clear. plus duties are ON 2 consecutive SUNDAYS?!?!?! i couldnt be more disappointed. "its inevitable. unless you guys want to 'TA' holidays?" my boss said. we thumbed.

on the brighter side of things. i'm going for the youth celebration thingy tonight 7pm at st.john - st. marg! may our faithful Lord inspire us once again! and keep the faith burning!:):) happy picnicing! :) gonna miss ya again.

p.s: suppered last night with vic, aza and joanna. :)

little treats:)

here's a treat to all who are reading!:) at the bottom of the page, you'll see a video extracted from Across the Universe movie. song is by the beatles but sang by that girl. superb!:) enjoy.

broken recorder:)

like a broken recorder. the scene stucks in your mind and there's almost nothing you can do. no fast forwarding, no rewinding or deleting. i cant stop thinking of it the past week. would it be inappropriate to invite along to view yh's film exhibition? would it be kinda far and late for? there're things i love to share and listen to the opinions and know how things are going but does it matter? there're thousand and one things far more relevant to do and to hear to what i've to say. i silence myself. keeping these to myself. why? coz deep down i'm so darn afraid. afraid of disappointing. of not being able to become a better person. of not being able to see a smile or hear laughter. :) something close to my heart. its a secret.

"where are we isnt who we are" isnt it? :) we're the children of God. therefore we're changed.

26 short films ADM:)

the short films ain't bad at all:) considering they are still students. they're just short of being professional. comments coming from a person who spends a quantitative amount of time in the threatres and has a good friend who fills me in detail of what's up in the arts scene. talented bunch of people from NTU ADM:) some developed their own style whereas the others tried to mimic certain directors. brought my brother there. i'm sure he had an eye-opener when he saw what the students did as schoolwork/project work. :D

:) i think i'm an arts' appreciater. a little bit of a critic too:P

birds and their droppings:)

HohOhOhoh! i've passed my jeepy test!:):) thank you all for ur prayers!:) truly by God's grace that i passed. today, i went islandwide! drove ard the country in an auto jeep! no windows, no doors, no windscreen, no nothing. just me and my jeepy buddy roaming and attracting attention. plus our green mushroom helmets which accentuated the aesthetics of the martian look. :D i want to own drive a jeep someday!! ehh... ... no no no..too noisy and fuel consuming. i want to drive a convertible one day!:):) let my hair down and ride with the wind~ ~ ~ away with the untrained birds dropping their dropppings and feathers. :( and kicked up leaves.

tmr is towing. towing. towing. towing. :D:D pray! :):)

how are you doing?:)

lalala~:)

morning blog!:) off to jeep now. pray for all drivers to drive safely, instructors and trainees to have a wonderful time guiding and learning and for teow and meimei's exam to lean on God's powers to do well!:):) take care!

He is faithful:)

much awaited has finally arrived. :) not really sure of what to say. how to say. didnt know if i could recognise her anymore which indeed happened for a moment. after sunday school, as almost always, xinjie and teow would "thanks:)" *drops their group register on my palms* as i scouted for wanwen. then using my sense of sight, i saw wanwen sitting up there talking to somebody in a black dress. "wahh..lazy to climb up the stairs leh." :P i said. "ehh..who's that?" xinjie squinted and said. using my magnified vision, i squinted a little in the same direction. *is that her...?* i thought to myself and proceeded up the stairs to have a closer look and of course executing my mission at the same time. :) it was. "hello!" that was what came out first. "hello kor!" she replied. i extended a hug. affirmative. she's back and she's safe:) she had to go. me too for 2nd service. couldnt help but take a few moments to look at her happy self. and her in her black dress. stunningly beautiful. okay! end of story.

really happy she's back home safe and sound:) thank God for keeping her safe and well while away and bringing her back safely. this is something to thank Him for. and i praise Him for that:)

pray for my jeep driving test on tuesday. meimei's test tmr:) teow's asian art history tmr:) thank God again for bringing her back safely:)

100th post!:) enjoy.

i am severely lack of rest. (##s) didnt sleep last night! waited the whole night and morning for leonids to appear in grandeur. only caught a few. some missed due to inconsiderate flashlights of the camera which caused my eyes to blink involunteeringly or rather instinctively. darn!! but anyhows, it was quite a sight to see meteors flying brownian motion. :D subsequently, continued with my day driving. super duper tired. had to eat 4 tubes of mentos (coke flavour, mint, lime and grape) and a packet of kopi-gaO. and did umpteen times of "bottles up, caps off, one full water bottle drink up" punishment for dozing off. hahaha..effective. kudos also goes to my instructor who never seems to fail to speak hokkien and make me laugh.

this frieday is my parking test!! :) a bit confident that i'll pass with a pb:P haha. i'll never forget to always rely on The Almighty Father! :):) hope shopping was fun today!

THIS IS MY 100th POST. :) speech. "many thanks to all my readers, whom i've no idea who, for reading my posts. i hope that my frankness and accounts of my life's happenings has brought you a step closer to loving God. In God I Trust. amen." :):):)

God is wonderFÜLL! :):)

YAYYYY!!! i [P]assed my highway situational test!! entirely by God's grace. this is yet another work of God:) the butterflies inside my stomach were halfway-metamorphosising into giant vampire bats, ready to suck every ounce of blood out of my veins. surely i know at that current state of mind, i would have passed out upon pushing the door of The Room. so as always, i inhaled an above-averaged amount of oxygen and exhale to squeeze the bats. i prayed to entrust the test unto His hands, not matter about the results, a calm heart and mind and for me to exhibit what i've learnt. the bloody bats returned my blood and perished at the thought of Him slaying. i resumed eating my not-so-hot dog bread. :)

later heading to science centre with my army friend to catch the Leonids meteor shower at 10pm:) kinda excited! :):) not exactly the ideal person to go with but i appreciate his company:) plus i'm home-alone:(:( i feel so deserted. :( *slays the ant crawling in my way of typing.

15th.

finally i can post a post:) super laggy broadband. didnt go for Da Zu today. coz felt the need to lightning bolt back home to practise for my tues' test. spoken situational test! something like.. "i am approaching a uncontrolled junction with a side road on my right. i am making a right turn so i signal right. rear view mirror check. beware of any vehicles following too closely behind me. slow down. left, right mirror check. beware of any motorcyclists squeezing in on my left and right of my vehicle. beware of any vehicles overtaking me from my left into my lane going straight or making a right turn. confirm safe! proceed with caution." this is only step one. HAHA! i'm serious. and there are multiple of multiples of situations i've to remember. how to pass like that?! my family and relatives going for a short vacation to malaysia from tonight till thursday. which means i've got the CAR!!!! muahahaha...but...means...no homemade food unless i cook myself which will incur alot of wastage, sweep and mop the floor, 'magic clean' surfaces of the tables and doors and the decibels in the house will drop to an all time low.

i think i'm going to bring a skate scooter tomorrow. :) and yes! i've got xinjie's head stuck with the song "i gotta feeling" by black eyed peas..haha. i think it brings good vibes. haha. jiduxiaoxingxing's kids are interesting! especially timmy (qi qi's bro) intelligent and out-spoken boy! got lamed with him. L still dont want to tell me when is the day!! :(

pray for a healthy body, obedient heart and most importantly trust in him. :) feel free to text me if you guys have got any prayer requests! :) i'm willing to pray for you.

zZz. friday the 13th:)

i snoozed off while driving today. :D totally didnt expect that to happen. thankfully i was driving the simulator:):) got verbalised big time by my instructor through the speaker located at the top left corner of the jeep. i could even hear the others in the background ROFLol. joker of the day. loserish. next week is my next test...ohh mans..theory instructor said, "andrew, kilat one lah. i think he's jeep only hope of passing this highway situational test." i looked at him and "ha..HA.. sir dont tickle me leh." next thing i know i've done 20 push-ups. :S i'm soooo not prepared for the test LAH!

i need a good rest. goodnight blog. :) thanks for hearing my blabble.

red bull gives you wings!

mental tireness has waged its war!! :O:O! must fight to stay awake!! awake!! its been a week plus since this course started. and i'm beginning to feel my energy beginning to be sapped too fast. half a day of lectures followed by half a day of driving..everyday. its fun but without energy..where can feel the fun?!?! my instructor's name is Mr Tan K. S. he's bald, doesnt speak english and he favours me alot. coz i gives him the least problems. model student! hahah!

I SCORED IN MY THEORY TEST!!!:D:D whee! next up, is my situational test. mode of conduct isnt written. its spoken! hahaha..quite a change. but i like;)

guess who's coming back soon?? hee. :):):):) jiayou for tmr's paper!:) all you need is trust.

just lonely:l

without my heart and soul. distracted. restless. this was how i entered the place of God today. my church. :( a sanctuary which i always regarded. has been broken this time. throughout the day, i felt alot. i questioned myself, "have i really progressed as a christian?". listened to preachings. helped out in sunday sch. read the bible. aca seldom. i inched forward. today weifang laoshi played a video in sunday school abt this person (nick vujicic) who was borned without limbs. he shared about how grateful he was to God. it was amazing how much faith and yearning he has for God. then i looked at things that happening around me. my cell group for instance. amidst all the hanging out, did we really sincerely take the effort to ask how another was doing? especially the newer ones then follow-up with showers of prayer..i'm guilty. truly i am. ashamed. or the other people in church.

when i heading back on the bus, a stranger helped a blind unto the bus. the blind felt his way to the sit facing me. i observed him for awhile. he was in his sixties carrying a black bag and his cane. upon sitting down, he folded his cane instinctively and hid it beneath his bag which was on his lap and slept leaning on the window. why hid his cane? soon i appeared to me that he seemed insecure of his surroundings. he didnt want any to know that he was blind so that he could not be taken advantaged of. it was saddening to see something like this. how lonely and insecure he can be.

i realised that we shldnt be asking God, "why are we made this way?" or "why wouldnt you give me this or that?" but rather the question God is asking us is, "do you trust in me?" and when we say "yes" to that question, nothing else matters. :)

and this is my peace.

saturday:)

woke up really early today. :S today was abit different. since it was a saturday, the usual free ride down to c-am-p was not entitled. thus i drove down. the snoring neighbours to the barren traffic on a saturday morning. how ironically peaceful. its inversely proportional. haha=D all was well when i arrived at the gate. "boy, ur pass leh?" he asked. "ohh uncle nah." i said. "ehh..le a buay sai park ze dao. tao seng." he replied. "harr... orh... wa bo coupon leh? le wu bo?" my attempt to converse in hokkien. "wa bicycle chia" he miming himself cycling. HAHA! super funny sia..so i U-turned and parked outside and bought 2x 1hr coupon from balding random person. went for the driving simulator lesson which contributed alot to my headache. lesson ended. walked out to my car and found myself with a $10 parking fine. :O ... :S ... :/ those were the expressions. took a closer at the ticket, "1008hrs". 8mins more only leh! sure is a fine city. then i looked up ahead...guess what? there she was. lady in her white uniform and blue hat holding her ticketing device determined to slay every driver along the stretch of road. argh. :(

:) more memorable was the gate uncle. hokkien level +1

late nights fever:D

350! 350! 350! i'm going bonkers over doing these questions!!~ its a vicious cycle! after the day's lesson, i rush home (1hr plus), clothes in laundry, bath, eat late dinner and start the 350qns. :S and wake up utterly early to head down. this is bad. i enjoy sleeping. it puts the body in shutdown mode. no thoughts, no actions, no disturbance. <5hrs is just dangerous, according to the risk-assessment of our body.

i'm going to 'ti-kam' my answers. :) that's what i'm going to do.

start of a new day!:)

HOO-YAY!! GOOD MORNING~ :):) and i'm off to my course=D looking forward to go for BSF! :D and i feel accomplished finishing the 350questions last night. here comes another 350 today! *sucks in a deep breath:X*

prayer requests! pray for mental strength to go through the lectures, love and patience for both the teacher and student and bless today to be a God-pleasing and fruitful day!! :):)

p.s: yesterday the barber told me, "you handsome but must trim off the whiskers lah!" heehee..my head bloaaaaaated. :P

change of plans :S

hello! i am back. :) wondering why? i'm going on-course! whee~ what course? main course? of course...not! its jeep course:D cheep, cheep cheep cheep! hahaha. thus i've to cancel my OFFs on friday and saturday. and because of this one month's long course, my duties have been fast forwarded. thus i'll be doing gua-rd duty this saturday to sunday. 24hrs. i'm so gonna zonk out on sunday @@s yups! i love driving:)

praise God for giving this opportunity for me to rest my back and take break from physical activities:):) He is wonderful. what can i say. :D

youth fellowship AGM:)

the session was great! :) thought it would be long and draggy and wordy. instead...it wasnt! :D the flow sequence was fluent. like praise and worship, followed by reflection of individuals who have served faithfully the past year (2 at a time) then sing a song then reflection then sing a song. :):) i like it! :P yup! haha. the highlight was zeli. not her laughter and her drama-mama actions but it was her thoughts and reflection on how tuan qi has grown. the sight of seeing people encouraging, caring, praying and being a brother or a sister to each other all this time moved her. the sense of belonging to the St. Andrew's Cathedral Mandarin congregation family. :) almost teared. everyone else too. :)

alrighty. i've gotta book-in earlier today. to "ja-ga" the men. :D i love slangs. this week will be shorter for me coz i've taken OFF on fri and sat! :):) YAY! prayer requests: pray for another God-pleasing week! to take good care of my back, confidence to share the gospel to one of my army pal (darren) who is a open-to-religious-thinking person:)

all the best for the preparations!~ SWOT = Swiftly Wiping Out Tests! :P lame i know. cheers mei!

last day of Att C :)

evil laughters everywhere!!! MUAHAHAHAHA! i'm free!! from home. it was nice cooping myself at home. making sure i get enough rest for my back..now that i'm going back, i feel...i need to move! hahaha..kinestatic person? abit. yup! this sat is enqi and jeffrey's holy matrimony at St. Andrew's Cathedral. 11am. hope i can make it. :S

L is a 5-star cliff-hanger.

alrighties! off i go~ make good use of the SWOT coming up! jiayous! :)

i confirm to you, i confirmed:D

confirmation. YAY!:):) the bishop sure did empower me with the holy spirit by transferring the emphasis of the words spoken from his mouth to his hands unto my head. "yes! yes! i'm listening and i confirm..my specs is gonna drop anytime soon if you dont relax on rocking the holy spirit into my head." thoughts that ran thru my mind at that time. :P much has happened the past week. struggles and light moments, definitely. struggles. mostly contributed by my men.

"hey, are you alright? havent seen you for quite sometime." asked me.
"sergeant, can i talk to you?" replied him. i nodded and pulled him aside.
"my girlfriend is pregnant..her parents want to disown her..what should i do? what should i say? she's feeling depressed." pouring the blood from his heart into my ears. *haha..kidding:P*
"wow..when did all of these happen?" i asked. (he filled me in with the details) 10mins later.
"remain calm and keep a rationale and steady mind. what has happened, has happened. reassure her again and again that she's not alone. and you're with her every step of the way." i answered. moments later, i wondered, how did these words came out of my mouth. :P i offered to pray for him. he agreed.

and many more. myself. went for my orthopaedic appointment. doctor gave me 7days Att C and excused heavy load and jumping from high grounds for 3months. meanwhile, "its physiotherapy for you now and we'll see if you need a MRI." :S *deeper thoughts continues*

pray for comprehensive understanding of what's going on with my back and for it to heal. :) so its the last week of semester before the 3days of swot then exams! you can do it! :)) for everything, there's God. keep praying! :)

i am baptised:D

"baptised finally..after so long" pastor wongling congratulating me. she knows my story. i've came a long way. 11.10.09 - nice number huh? haha. my initial thought after knowing i was gonna be baptised on this day. many others who were being baptised too expressed much delight and excitement with photograph being taken here and there. honestly, i wasnt as hype as they were. :P i took it more on a serious note. like searing every reply into my mind and thinking about how i am going to live my life in accordance to His word after this baptism. yups! many love and thanks goes to the people who shook my hand and congratulated me. :):) thank God even more for giving me an opportunity to know Him. His grace indeed. wells, next week is my confirmation!:)

i live for Him today, everyday. :) you too!

next sunday!:)

i'm gonna be baptised this coming sunday. a milestone of my life. excited i am. but at the same time, thinking of the significance of this ceremony. "ni shi fou xiang xing ci4 sheng ming de shen4 ling shang di?", "ni shi fou ju jue mo gui he mo gui yi qie de zhuo wei..?". question is, will i be able to preserve and keep this promise? i have to. i must. i need to be determined. obedient. yearning for His knowledge.

pray for a heart and mind ready to be His faithful soldier. and fight the good battle. :)

let's pray! we know it never fails;)

mid-autumn festival!:)

mid-autumn festival! whee~ went to church for the festive celebration in the evening just now. praises to the Lord! 20 odd people stepped forth to accept Christ as their Lord and Saviour. an encouraging sight caught in time. helped out with the chinese riddles. there are certainly a lot of "hen you mo shui" people in church. haha. definitely not me. i only majored in munching down on the mooncakes. hee. encouraged by guantee's mom. "enji! lai! lai! chi chi! bu4 ran2 deng yi xia jiu mei you le!" gesturing me to the table of mooncakes and tarts. i submitted. :P anyhows, meimei was one of the vocalist. she wore a pink dress. and she was beautiful! didnt know why she didnt like it.

before evening, visited the hospital again. to have a chat with the doc about my back. this time, something was done! i'm going to see an orthopaedic to take a closer look. however, the radiology department sure killed much of my cells. x-rayed the wrong portion of my back!? lumbar became thoracic!? gees.. because i'm a nice person, i didnt pursue the matter.

pray for a good, accurate diagnosis on my back when i see the orthopaedic and meanwhile attempt to take good care of my back. thanks! :):) your prayers are instrumental.

piano in pieces:)

"keep an open mind when you hear. the intonation of a plainsong composition of melodic keys churned out from the intentions of the composer. every beat settled on time. the variations strummed the strings to your heart. you listened a little harder coz his music seemed to orchestrate his story. his story beaming seemingly yet he teared as he punched down every key denoted. the sonata ends. everyone applauded in appreciation. you didnt applaud. instead you stood there among the applause hoping that the pianist's will share his story in full for you to truly appreciate and present the appropriate round of applause." :)

a pianist. his own.

one movie caught!:)

kicked start the day with my quest to acquire my "chiong-suar" black casio watch at bugis street. bought at $18 after a bargaining attempt. retailed: $18.90. haha:D persuasive bargaining skill +1. then headed to the flea market behind sim lim. and saw the exact casio watch retailing at $8. slapped my forehead. and consoled myself with a magnolia (which ripped me off..$3). gees. soon i realised the hole in my pocket just turned into a black hole. went to draw $40. determined to enjoy the public holiday, went to the diocesan family day at SAC. people from every other anglican church were there. for SACM, we had a "slipper soccer" stall. haha! zero running cost, max. entertainment value. people enjoyed flicking slippers into the various levels of hula hoops to win a prize. haha! later, caught a movie "tokyo sonata" with teow at picturehouse. first row from the screen. we're super zai. coz thru out the movie we "tahan" the 2hrs with our heads tilted up, right. the movie was fantastic laH! a touch of piano somemore. plus point for me:D we discussed abt the happenings and the significance. director is just ..beyond brilliant. on our way back, chatted abt teow's upcoming short film. check it out people! uprising young director..teow. seriously, teow is gifted. and i'm appreciative that i've an opinion that i can share. :)

pray for God's guidance for me as i continue another week. and a obedient heart to listen to His word and mediate on them faithfully. :) anything i can pray for? :))

a typical breed. :)

WHEE!! i'm back. its been 2 freaking weeks. feels like i've just been released from a double-locked cage...i'm free like a chirping chick, sprinting everywhere but to nowhere:D ahh~ so many happenings. start with my cage. it was the second day into their enlistment, boyboy was happily eating his lunch till unfortunate event one happened. he sneezed...no mucus but a dislocated jaw. yups! ("like that also can" right?) i stunned lah.. he was like "arh~ sar~ eeze~ gaw~ dop~" it took me awhile to figure out..."i sneeze, jaw drop". next was 3 boyboys got fever then given MC to go home but chose to stay... (-.-)" its either they are lovin' it or they owe loan sharks money outside. hahaha:D this wasnt the most extreme. boyboy z's received news that grandma passed away. given 3 days compassionate leave. but chose to stay. later decided to at least attend the wake. gees! siao lah. so far it has been fun for me. being an elder brother to them instead of an instructor. nice to see this breed of human species. witty and funny.

SUNDAY! :D caught the "dead sea scrolls" exhibition with sunday school kids. hahaha. i think they found it a little boring. for me, it was good background knowledge of the times then. treated my sunday schools kids to macdonald's. their faces most certainly litted like a star with the widest grin from ear to ear. talked to a couple of them. glad that all, in general consensus, agreed that studying sucks. and thomas dislikes his math teacher coz she keeps scolding him. oh wells. its a phase in life. later in the afternoon, baptism class. (1) "why do we pray?" since God knows what is in our hearts already (2) "why pray specifics?" --coz by praying and praying specifically, we open our hearts to Him and talk to Him, building a relationship with Him! :) like a son to his father. after the lesson, went to lan gaming session with my cell group for 3hrs. Left 4 Dead. with a tinge of Dota. :) YAY!! tmr is a public holiday! :) which means...i've to return to the cage. a leashed chick after all. :(

what are we now truly? coz i feel like an ugly duckling.

I believe in your victory:)

"do you think that there is always a positive intention behind every behaviour or action?" i believe so. i'll give the benefit of the doubt. :) here is a sharing i would love to share. its about being judgemental. its always good to be opinionated. to have a voice of your own. but if the opinion is verbalised and worse of, is a negative remark about a person, i guess that's wrong. a negative perceived image of this person is formulated in your mind and likely, this person becomes a question mark. his reputation, blemished a little. lesson is, dont judge/assume. why not speak of the beauty of the person? what happened to building each other up and speaking the truth in love? :) interesting findings this week.

anyhows, i need God to shower me with His guidance, patience and love for my men who will be coming this friday! excited!! :D

how are you? :) coz i want to tell you, "i'm great! i'm living well. learning. growing like a petunia! haha. i cut my hair. tmr i'm graduating from my course. might be sneaking into BSF. read james2 (i agree that faith cannot work without works). men coming in this friday. will be confined this week till 19sept. will be visiting the "dead sea scrolls" exhibition on 20sept with my sunday school kids. miss you quite alot. i believe God is working in our lives! keep shining! do you have any prayer requests?.."

little blessings:)

went for baybeats last night :) whoa! cool music. chill-out music. moshable music. interesting to see how much music instruments have evolved from big bulky trumpies to small nintendo-sized DS that can emit more funky grooves/combos than most can imagine. later will be checking out this band, "In Each Hand A Cutlass". they're post rock. they'll be on from 7pm to 730pm at either the arena or powerhouse at esplanade. good stuff. wished i could hang around longer to enjoy a saturday's night of fine music. I've gotta go back in AGAIN. tonight by 9. yup. no sunday for me again. again. coz got range. darn. so keen on helping out for sunday's evangelistic workshop. haiz. sorry for disappointing people over and over again. oh mans..anberlin from USA leh..

pray for my range tmrw that i can do well, for the upcoming enlisting of my boys, my prep-course in a neighbouring island next week, exercising and reminding myself of His word and to be grateful and thankful to God always in the little things that i'm blessed with. :)

take care with truck loads of God's love. ;)

sunday:)

ohh mans! its back in THERE again. haha. wells, ironically, i kind of want to go back. it has been quite a while since i crapped with my buddies. haha! anyhows, this coming friday, saturday and sunday is baybeats2009!! whee!!! who wants to go raise up your hands!! :D come and enjoy the music! haha..only want to go for anberlin. and this local band called In Each Hand A Cutlass. they're post-rock bands:)) yupyup! haiz...i've got this super cough which even jin niom, robittusin and strepsils cannot even work their magic. haha :S i enjoy listening to pastor yeow hwa's sermons..its so..logical and systematic which includes occasional lame jokes. haha! thank God for using him. baptism class is just beautiful. learning the fundamentals:)

"be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." romans12:12 :)
my takeaway. for yours to share.

army daze:)

first time i've got a week away from army life. :) refreshing. very much. went for aroma back massage and foot reflexology at kenko. plus i got a free fish spa:D kinda creepy with wiggling thingys nibbling ur leg. ewww.. but its suppose to detox your legs. haha. but i wondered if they ever change the fishes..if not..hmmm. and the back and foot massages did made me feel lighter and less stiff on the neck and shoulders. interesting to learn of the nerves that are connected to the foot and back. like when you press, then if there's some pain, then this part of your body is not too good. etc etc. more fulfilling was the time i spent reading God's word. understanding Numbers 10-14. :))

please be happy already.

prayer request.

a buddy of mine has been admitted to the hospital 3hours ago. doctors have found some inconsistency from the ECGs that they have done. he is currently under observation in the A & E Observation Ward for 8 hours. he is worried that the worse might happen. a heart seizure. he has been feeling a lot of sharp pains in his chest recently even when doing light duties. do please pray for his anxiety to subside, courage to hope in the Lord and relief for his family. thank you.

pause

dear readers, your writer is unwell. he will be away for awhile. you can reach him by text.

breaths short. :0

shortness of breath. usually occurs when one is claustrophobic and cooped in a confined space. or running, when your heart just keeps whipping your poor lungs with shockwaves of signals demanding "EXPAND you pigs!! MORE oxygen!!". or feeling the side effects of munching on those tasty crispy deep fried youtiao complement with soya bean drink (I sense a heartburn coming:p). or just the stress and the heavily laden things you often care so much about. you're unwell. but the doctor can't find out what's really wrong after listing out the possibilities. he suggests you go home and rest. you've got nothing else to say coz you've said what's to be said. you gave the doctor's advice a chance. you trust his judgement or diagnosis on your condition. somehow deep down you know you're unwell. you need help. and there's nothing you can do. coz he's a doctor afterall. this is when you pray. and all is well again. coz even if u're truly unwell, He's watching over you. :)

take a walk with me. :)

a long and lone wooden bench situated at the apex of the pavement facing the sea. i sat alone on one end of the bench. the sea breeze in the evening was cooling. i closed my eyes and tilted my nose towards the sky to steal a breath from the oncoming breeze. i enjoyed that moment the most. it was filled with nothing. no sound of passing vehicles, no task to execute, not thinking of my troubles. just an elderly couple taking a stroll together with their cane holding hands and the low dull tones of waves. they were lovely. loving. lovers all over again. there were no conversations between them. they treasured the silence and their partner's presence. that was sufficient to keep them going. to know that that person you love is still living beside you caring for you. in my eyes, they're my perfect couple.

sanctify this withered soul of mine.

internet at last:)

its kinda weird not using the internet over the weekends. but it sure is nice to sit in front of the computer typing away your thoughts:) *no hard feelings moleskine notebook;), you know i know can already* :) i called. you picked. i struggled a little to say "hello". *so instinctively the weird hello greetings kicked in as usual* i wished you had a monologue:P to listen to your voice. pardon i didnt pay much attention to the contents coz i wanted to hear you. honestly. i had 6hrs worth of credit and i was ready to expand it. but of course i knew, that would not happen. it would be impractical, non-logical, inconsiderate, harmful to ears, and the list goes on. haha. i missed your presence.

went to "streams of praise" on sunday. it was at bethesda bedok-tampines church. they came out with a new album, "bu4 yao4 fang4 qi4" (dont give up). as usual, i lip-sing the new songs. like sing with the flow or pretend to sing like a pro. :P heehee. and i recalled the time we went for their previous concert at Odeon, Kallang. i rmbed you wore blue. :) one of those fond memories. captured and stored in my mind's mind.

my stand, my covenant.

i'm really glad that i've made the decision to go for baptism classes starting from this sunday 2nd aug. i've always thought that parental approval was necessary. so did my sister. then, i remembered she quarrelled a great deal with my disapproving and unbelieving dad. so furious was he that night at the thought of it. he smashed that angel porcelain which my sister had. i was young and my sister was afraid. frightened we both were. i never liked my dad. the things he says dont equate. he's superstitious, demanding and temperamental. probably of his generation of men. with the influence of my grandma. i didnt have a proper childhood. when i was 5 or 6, i'll help my dad with the vegetables. bundling the vegetables with rubberbands to using a knife to cut vegetables. i dwelled the wet markets. *i should stop here* i vowed to myself to never be like him. i forgive him coz God forgave me.

pardon my inadequacies in life. i will learn.

p.s: apologies for the deviation in topic. but yah..these things i'll never say. thank you Lord for giving me the opportunity to draw closer to you.

happiness.

happiness : we're in this together.

this happiness isnt the sort that brings lots of "heehee" or "haha" or will make you ROFL almost always but instead this happiness will push you to your very limit. till the point where you will frustrate, bitch abt every single misfortune you come across, blame yourself for being yourself, you try to focus but you just can't, your mind just switches to the darker and more emo side of you.

and time will transverse with your happenings until somebody or anybody comes along to show a sincere amount of concern and love. or that special someone whispers into ur ear and say, "We're in this together."

that very moment, you'll exhale that very breath you've kept in ur chest all this while and realise, He loves you and has always been waiting for you to walk this journey with Him.

God is my happiness.
care to be like Him? coz i'm trying. with love and patience:)

=/

went to the hospital (SGH) yest to get a some consultation and diagnosis on my knees happenings. i'm still walkable. haha. just the occasional buckling. *cancel last order* er..a bit more frequent buckling. :) doc at A&E could not determine the cause of my discomfort even with my lucid derivation of the pain. thus i've a date with an orthopaedic (world acclaimed) on the 5th aug. :) meanwhile, i'm keeping my strides to the minimum. and praying i can get up and going. :)

i got myself an ipod earphone with a mic! which means if there's wireless access, i can skype with a voice! :) hope you see where i'm coming from. :)

from the bottom of my heart.

somehow or rather, i wish you would know the battles i fight each day. every opportunity arises, i would seize and give to you. i brainstorm day and night thinking of how to draw this gap closer. literally/non-literally. i've evaluated a few. we'll see if it works. but i'm losing steam. a hand cannot produce a clap. it needs two to clap. help me out here. i'm trying. then often i'll ask myself again, "am i trying hard enough?" followed by (army style) "you ain't trying if you aint dying." but then again, how much is enough? we're talking about perfection now. i'm not. :l i love you.

the rehearsals :S

idk. i havent been living a very healthy life. coming home to a tired me. a me that concerns only myself. self being selfish. this thought came down so hard on me that i realise i'm slowly losing my identity. morphing into a whimsically stranger. :(

i need time off. time off to breathe.
i need a friend. friend that would sincerely feel for me and give me a forceful hug.
i need God. God to slap me hard on the face so that i can remember.

(..)

i'm on newspaper! :D

YAY!!! can you see me? :):) i'm on the papers. TODAY paper. front page. the picture of DPM braving the pouring rain. you see a white line somewhere one fifth from the top right of the picture? i'm the head just left of it! heehee..yahh..the malay bride. not exactly the cutest of all puppets/dolls. but yah..managed to make a couple of kids happy by letting them pull my "skirt". those perverse and demonic kids. haha! the participants had a truck loads of FUN in the rain. singing the national anthem in the rain. dancing in the rain. being in the rain in the rain. haha! :D

ohh~ bsf and me.. =D

crashed bsf again today. :) i'm so sorry for the last minute cancellation of our appointment. or maybe there wasnt any. but i'm sorry still. BSF...ahh~ God spoke to me again. I think i ought to reflect hard on what He has said to me today. (deep voice) "Will YOU, my Son, be HOLY?" to lead a holy life characterised by purity both inward and outward. wahh~ *slaps myself for being the opposite* i need to stay focus. to constantly constantly CONSTANTLY align myself to God's will. AHH!!! *slaps myself again* to let my sins die and never to be revived.

reaching out for that beacon of light! :)

sunday! :):)

today's youth day for the church. :) not exactly youthful anymore. but the spirit was willing! anyhows, woke up really early to go for a dry run on the songs. 8am at graham white library?! fought a tough battle with my comfy bed. but of course, the will to sing for God and the thought of going to church itself stood strong. :D i thought that the songs were very meaningful. sang with a lot of heart definitely. after that, we had a youth lunch at CNS. played "dont forget the lyrics". so we split up into various groups. the bolder stood out, whereas the shy shunned. although there were many laughs but i felt the need to interact with one another was a tad short. :) anyhows, job well done to the organisers. then we had bible study. listening but was mentally tired from yesterday's NDP rehearsal... (stood in the rain and perform lor :S + slack of sleep)

nice catching up with rae and yuchian. =)

comedy covered (o"j)

transversing on the eastbound mrt. i was listening to my ipod with the earphone cords dangling. a schoolboy stood by the sliding doors awaiting to alight at the next station, queenstown mrt station. "Ding Dong! Queenstown Mrt station." the doors slid open. next thing i know, the cord of my earphone got caught with the boy's schoolbag and i was on my way, sucked out of the train.. frantically trying to unhinge the cord hooked to his cunning bag. i made it back to the mrt. i buried my head all the way to dhoby ghaut. with the giggles of the school girls that witnessed the entire sequel..zxzxz.. (-______-)"

the beauty of this world. uncovered. =)

i dont know.

i dont know. i just wait. wait for a response. hoping to hear you from the other side. to refresh the status of your well-being in my mind. all of these may not seem apparent to you. or you might just think otherwise. (pause for a while) *just thought of a joke* here it goes. "you seemed really tired. i guess its probably coz you've been running through my mind." hahaha! okay..i guess you got the message i'm trying to bring across. i care for you. and you're missed dearly. =) i dont know how else to put it. i'm thinking. thinking of ways to update you about myself. fearing that in cold nights, the loneliness just describes the coldness. to be spiritually accountable for each other. so i pray. that you'll be fine and God is watching over you. :)

sincerely, truthfully.

(:

i've decided to participate in this year's musical. :) i'm expecting to land myself in a precarious role which i'm highly uncomfortable with. musical/acting isnt exactly my forte. however, against all odds, i'm going to try and expose myself to the great unknowns. not like i'm not doing it now (NDP puppeteers?!). somehow after living for 2 decades or so, i somewhat learnt that i enjoy the process of trying new things. learning piano. dancing. listening to music of foreign nature. singing. doing various com-man-do exercises...etc..i'm adverturous! personality +1. haha. if there's something you observed abt me and you would like me to know, i'll love to listen over a cup of coffee. :D my treat. for what's not worth discovering yourself. ;)

i have an opinion. care to listen? ;)

patriotism :X

HOOOORRAAYY!! i'm in NDP. :D not marching. not playing any instruments. not something that ANY ordinary person can do;) i'm a mascot. hee. not exactly the form of patriotism i thought i would give to my country. but i must say, i like it. not the publicity i'm getting but the involvement in such an event. :D. whee~! plus i get to eat KFC every week. hahaha. gluttony. :P

next.

MY IPOD ITOUCH IS COMING TODAY!! :D MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHA~

phase3 :)

so this is the last chapter of my 2years tour. the opportunity to nurture a group of boys to become men of steel. :) the weight on my already-aching shoulders will increase a ton. haha. how i see it? let's examine from perspectives. honestly, i've taken enough blows to my body over the past 8months. (think abt these (1) what good is a soldier if he goes thru training that ends him in a condition unfit for combat? (2) do i have to sustain an injury serious enough so that i can fall out?) but this is a great avenue to hone my leadership skills, interpersonal relations and understand human needs. i'm keen on improving myself over time. physically, intellectually, spiritually, mentally, emotionally and every other "..ly" you can find.

we'll see how. i'm allowing God to work in my life. committing every decision i make into his hands :)

home :)

"hello this is the captain speaking. we'll touchdown in 2 mins time. weather outside is partly cloudy and temperature is 27deg celsius. thank you for flying with silk air." OOO!! the fact that the temp outside was 27 degs...we burst out in elation! 10 deg of difference man! plus we're finally...FINALLY..back home. we congratulated and gave each other a good pat on the shoulder saying "we've made it".

nothing much i'll say about my exercise there. but i'll give a gist of the overview.

"Plans are as per normal, Changes are as per usual." thank God for teaching me to appreciate life itself and be ever so thankful for the happenings implanted in my life. :) all is good, all the time.

tonight the journey begins :D

"here is your main course sir. *grins* enjoy!" the sarcasm that reeks pungent on one half of my mind. but it seems the other side of me never fails to embrace the challenge without a good fight. to relinquish every ounce of my energy and will to complete. this time nothing will change. i'll walk through the gateway of the airport with the courage God has given me, the protection He promised and the good faith that He has planted in me. thanks be to God =) and till the 17th of May 0000hrs when i return, know that you guys out there are constantly remembered and loved. *and if given a choice not to go and catch up with you all, i'll gladly say YES! :DD

*redundant i know but needed to emphasise on my point :D hee.

see ya in a month's time! ;)

off-day:)

the luxury of waking up late. ahh~ :) watched the movie, "17again" feeling quite young already. just the little pleasures of life. what is to come? as chantel kreviazuk's LEAVING ON A JET PLANE would put it, "all my bags are packed, i'm ready to go... .. ..coz i'm leaving on a jet plane! ohh babe, i hate to go." hahaha! something along those lines. how am i feeling? breathless at the thought of going thru the training but slowly regained by the assurance God has given me. i'll going to pull through! :D

will probably publish another post just before i fly ;) stay tuned.

Ex-grandslam 2 cut! :)

"good shot!" the first encouragement and ending words of my commander's speech. thank God first and foremost for bringing me back home safe and sound. :)) thank Him also for giving me the fighting spirit to press on. Fixating my mind on the gift of life God has given me. the panoramic view of the brilliant city lights of singapore from the helicopter. sensational followed by a sudden adrenaline of loyalism to the country. "to defend and protect the constitution WITH OUR LIFE!" hee. this spearheaded the mood of the exercise to a direct climax. then slapped right down to beyond the great depression. hahaha. marching in the wee hours plus river-rosssssing. thinking by now, after all the walking in full battle order in our soaked clothing, its only humane for them to allow us to catch some sleep, eat our breakfast and brush the algae off our clothing and teeth. NOT. we proceeded with our training. we dug and dug.. dug.. dug.. dug.. dug.. and dug.. and the next thing i know(next morning), my buddy was in a position with the shovel driven 60degs to the ground and him bending over it. for a moment, seriously, i thought he stabbed himself... scary man. okay. i'll end it here. ;)

coming up is thailand! :D whee!! period.

charging..battery full. :)

here i am. this far i've come. i'm not going to give up coming this far. i'm not being foolish. i recognise the risk i'm taking. i heeded the doctors advice to think carefully. and i've thought through this deeply. tomorrow i'm going to breech into the gates of Hades for the next 4 days.

"Father, i need your strength. strength to overcome adversities. to lift your name up high even in dire situations. Father, i need you. i need ur love to fill me and energize me once again. amen."

trust. wholeheartedly. :)

=)

living by faith and not by sight. :) God, you know me inside out. i'm weathered by many of ur saving grace. carry me once more. teach me to adhere to your will for me. i will obey and give my heart wholeheartedly to you.

take care of her. :) remove her stress and empower her with your almighty strength like how you empowered me. keep her safe and warm in your love. amen.

enriched. :)

there it was, my double western bacon cheeseburger with a box of beef chilli cheese fries and an unlimited freeflow of large ice lemon tea presented exceedingly tempting right before me. i could feel the heartburn beginning, and i have yet to pick up a wedge. wooahh~ looking up was xinjie (potential doctor-to-be) chombing on his beef chilli chesse fries already. i thought, "he is ur greenlight ;)" hee. okok. so much for my lunchtime.

last week = fun! :) running in and out of a dummy heli. teaching my juniors. caring for them. giving them heads up on what is to come. had funny moments as usual.

going to connect with nature for the next 3 days. :) looking forward to it. although the weather here hasnt been cooperative. :( haha. but ohh wells, it has been quite some time since i wallow in the mud. :D won't be going to church next sunday. duty calls. :((

i recognise that the coming weeks will be crazy. in the wild back to back. still i wanna dedicate a big big THANK YOU to the almighty Father i have in heaven. He hasnt failed me. instead in this 6 weeks so far, i've been well. though on the verge of passing out, He sustains. He lifts up my spirit and keeps it burning with fervour. and i know He WILL carry me on this time. :)) *applause* and I'VE GOT BIBLE STUDY! YAY!!

ps: thanks for taking the time off to read! :) do comment and feel free to share. i'm most willing to listen and pray for your requests.

32km :D

me: rubito.
ruben: sup.
me: time check.
ruben: 10mins more.
me: red bull 16km?
ruben: ok.
16km mark. "one full of red bull drink up!"

that was our way of keeping each other in check. short and concise question & answer :)
with the occasional highness by each of us. river crossing. "isn't it an opportunity of a lifetime to enjoy a chilly cold bathe in the biggest bathtub?!" with my fellow associates of the underwater world. :D seeing this hurdle in a positive light with a tiny drop of humour was they need to change their mindset and overcome! =)) fought the evil zzz monster once again. tough but manageable. ;P returned with a major red 'sweat+moisture' pokadots on my shoulders, aches (redundant to say...32km hello?? :D) & knee pains. ok! shall stop ranting on this part of my life.

caught a movie yesterday. "marley and me" the movie had very down to earth scenarios of a couple's life together. loved the way the director portrayed how john reflected everytime he goes back home.

-end- :D

water parade! :D

"water parade!! water parade!!" voice of a "karang guni" commander rallying his men to hydrate. hahaha! an example of a kodak moment in command school. hmm...i've been well. just reeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllyyyyyyy tired. but somehow above all the "hoohah!" and the "ping piang!", i believe i'm already conditioned. this has become my lifestyle. a routine executed every week. every week is different. its always more dramatic, more dangerous. not the James Bond type of calibre. but enough to break you and build you up to a mentally-stronger person ;)

God has His plans for everyone. open your heart and listen a little closer. soon you'll find yourself in a huge pot filled with His blessings of grandeur in your life. :D

a heartbeat skipped! :D

forming up in a single file. "1...2...3! GOGOGO!!!" 120 men jaywalked and swifted onto the other side of the road. haha! kodak moment of the night! :D from walking straight to ding-donging with people front, back and side to side. my first ever sleepwalk!! whee~ just when i thought this phase of my army life will be historicalised and never to be revived. news broke. i kenna posted to stage 2..the advanced course. ahh~!! more of getting lost in jungles, sleeping with mosquitos, route marches and SOC! *eye twitches* haha.

thanks for calling!! :D shockingly surprising. hee. thought i did something wrong. :D

nights out! :)

pick a good heart. plant it in God's flower pot of trust. nourish it with God's love, patience and understanding. remove any misunderstanding leaves. and let the fruits be decided by Him. have good faith that He's plan for you is great and bare true allegience to Him always!

we'll be fine. trust Him.

*this is a rushed out post:P*

my bow :)

she pouted. that was the last glimpse i caught as i waved. every step away seemed like a ton. i didnt want to leave. i wanted very much to sit and talk. to listen and to pray for her once more. it was overwhelming for us. i held my tears. she teared. i had to stand strong. i had to give her my fullest assurance that all is well-taken care of. we had witnessed God's doings in our lives. we know full well that He is capable and almighty. too much to feel, too much that shld have been said, too much wonder-full memories that an instinctive reaction kicked in. we embraced each other for the blessings that each have given. we appreciated.

this friendship i will treasure wholeheartedly.

we both know :)

i'm never the sort that liked to talk just for the sake of making the time spent feel less 'boring'. i prefer to engage in more serious discussions. reality-based. struggles fought. lessons learnt. thoughts that inspire. abit of sarcasm. and the occasional impromptu-ness/stupidity of various actions. somehow, i like spending one on one quality time. i feel i'll get to know people better. i love details. the more the merrier. i appreciate. i emphatise. i see new perspective. impressions not tainted by the ugliness but embraced with love. i learn and i translate. i love. :)

blessed chinese new year! :)

happy chinese new year :D

a little heart to share :)

everyone needs some form of recognition, to be accepted, to be regarded and to be loved. lately, i learnt abit of myself. i'm not the competitive sort of person. not in studies. not in sports. and especially not in relationships which involve many parties. i simply just do my best on my part and let nature takes its course. its my style i guess. The laid-back approach to things. but there's more. i do make deliberate decisions to take a step back and think. and lay low. :) not exactly the best solution to things but it gives enough breathing time for everyone. hopefully it doesnt withers. :)

end of my high keys :))

never really had 2 field camps back to back. now i have a hindsight to give me a foresight of what a future commander should be :D to "tahan" and put up a strong facet in front of your men. hide all (yes! ALL) your fatigue, abrasion, here pain there pain, cuts, bruises and bites. haha. to take up this role as a leader! thank God it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. except for the shagness. 3-3.5hrs sleep a day with jam-packed activities. ohh activities...i did navigation! i enjoyed walking with my team non-stop finding the unknown checkpoints. we pretended. we laughed. we got trapped. we sneaked. never have i had so much joy playing "treasure hunting". hee. i'm glad God has kept me safe all this while.

*lost 3kg :( not good.

my test of obedience :)

YAY! :D thank God i've managed to clinch a silver for my IPPT test! 23/25points :) 11.05mins... i must also credit my achievement to my buddies who ran with me and kept telling me, "lunch is 100metres away! go Go GO!!". they knew that food has always been my alternate source of motivation inside. 100metres later, they said, "paiseh! its another 100metres!" hahaha.. i vomitted after the run. and still managed to chomb 3 bowls of rice :D buddies..

next 2 weeks will be the highest key weeks. confronting the jungle. no shower, no bed, no macdonalds or char siew pao, no phone to call back..just me, my buddies and our 30kg fieldbags. :D

"Father, take me through another week of my life inside. next week is going to be hard and i'm holding firmly onto you! please sustain me and protect me from any harm. Father, there are also matters in my mind which are beyond my control and i would like to leave it all unto your mighty hands! amen"

ïf you're happy and you know it clap your hands" ;)

happy new year! zeronine! :D

singing songs of praise after the countdown was just the appropriate start to 2009! what more with the my fellow church pals! :D managed to keep myself awake for approximately 23.5hours then knocked out within 30secs..anyhows, these moments shared are priceless :) the occasionally snoring from some people, people pouring out their cares, people being a listening ear, people reflecting and determined to live a more God-driven life..etc.

for me, for a start, i'm going to learn to be a 'how' person! instead of deriving the 'whys' in my head..to develop constructive and effective solutions to problems. but of course with God's providence over my life! :)

let march in the line of the Lord! :D
two thousand and nine, here i come.