hi my name is enji.

hello deserted blog. haven't chatted with you for quite awhile. dont know where to start...I'll just start. it has been a week since I got back from st andrew's family camp:) He let me experience Him once again..when wlcd approached me to be a group leader for the camp, I was quite hesitant. I was unwilling to step out of my comfort zone to lead. to fuel the unwillingness, i told myself that I didn't have the confidence to lead ppl who are obviously much more knowledgeable than me in the Word and since I have only led SN1/2. It was a whole new thing for me..after a few texts between me and wlcd, I decide to go for it in good faith. God surely did spoke to me as I listened to the theme talks throughout the 3/4days...the talks were deep but mainly focus on Ephesians 4:11-13. which spoke about the roles of each identity and how we can match their functions to today's context, the vision and goals that were set by God and how we should go about working towards our goals. if there were a couple of things that I brought back from the camp, they were "never compare your weakness to other people's strength" and we, as followers of Christ, must be prepared to step up and lead when the calling calls. firstly, "never compare your weakness to other people's strength". This spoke to me. I must admit that I admire a lot of people in my life. which often put me in the backseat looking at how the admired do their gear change ever so smoothly..don't know if you know what I mean..haha..(if you know, you know, if you don't know, means you don't know.......enji's higher level of thinking....hahah) but I learnt this time that I definitely did not pull off this role as a group leader for the camp by myself..it was DEFINITELY GOD'S HANDS at work. I didn't have the slightly thought of worrying whether I would perform or not...I was at peace with Him. yup...that's Him.

another thing I am ever most grateful and thankful for were my semester 2 results:) if you have talked to me over the past 5 months all the way till the end of my last paper, you would have a good sensing of my worries and cares. honestly, i was ready to bring forward 2modules which would probably have me stay back 1 more semester..I was devastated almost after every paper..especially so when I see cheery faces after the paper. Praise be to God truly, He showed me His grace as He revealed my results through my sister's lips..."you passes everything...ALL Bs." I levitated.

to be continued...I hope.:) with a hope of a brighter tomorrow.

week10:)

hohoho! 5more weeks to go..are you ready to face the summary test of all your 9 modules?:D:D 8 now i meant..hmm..3quizzes down last week and i thought, wasn't too bad. but sometimes it just feels erky after the test, knowing that you've missed out something or could have done it this way.

this week is week 10. things i've got to accomplish. one: complete my lab report. two: continue improving on my literature review for my technical communications module. three: coordinate a meet-up this friday with my EID design team to fabricate. four(which has the same pinyin as 死): preparation for mathematics 4 quiz next tuesday.

just collected my new passport:D

going to study now for my tuesday's quiz! cheers

never knew:( + happy birthday mom!

it's been quite some time since i last blogged. havent really got the motivation to type my thoughts away since the beginning of my new semester:) wells, this week is my recess week. i'll be doing my elective on introduction to entrepreneurship. as most of you all know, this week is the most 'xiong' period of my tertiary education. today we had a presentation on our marketing plan. next two days would be the submission of our feasibility report and the presentation to it >< and next week i've got 3 quizzes which i've yet to revise and study for it:D

i'm taking it positively. like in the future when you've got your own family, work and parents expectations to handle. it'll be something like that. hahaha..yeah..yesterday i went for my bsf lesson. it was on isaiah 6. it was pretty short..still trying hard to grasp what isaiah is saying. but the highlight was the fellowship after..

i was pretty much hesistant about going for the bsf fellowship after the lecture coz was quite stressed over preparation for today's presentation. somehow i said to myself, "haiz..give God a chance to say something to you." so i stayed. i made the right decision. i learnt more about my group leader. i was quite taken aback by the situation that he's going thru.. he is a Singh. has a chinese girlfriend. and the whole family is not happy with the idea that he became a christian and the fact that he has a chinese girlfriend. what's spiced up the situation was, he is going to tell his parents about his marriage plans with his chinese girlfriend. in my heart, i thought, he is the Man man..outwardly he seemed happy, cheerful and worry-free. but deep down He is constantly dialling God's helpline.

then i felt guilty on replying his msg sometimes.

sheeeeshh.

today is my mom's birthday:) happy birthday mom!

grandma's birthday!:)

YAY!!:) later today is Grandma's birthday!:) also known as AH MA. abit about her..she's ____years old. quite old. she's speaks mainly hokkien and occasional mandarin. she'll randomly sneak money into one of my hand and say “ann-jew, *pops the money*。。好好读书" then hoping that the other cousins dont see this coz you know what...but i guess she does that to everyone. she's a sneaky sneaky caregiver:D. she looks surprisingly youthful for a granny. okies i guess that enough for an introduction. hmm..later we'll be going to somewhere around thomson to eat at some place. grandma likes it. mans..the aunties and uncles are going to bombard me with questions of usual sorts. "andrew, how're your results?", "andrew, found anyone yet?", "andrew, how's school?"...my replies are the same every year:P if they realised. "average lah..*then switch topic* so how's (their child's name) doing?..." secretly, i think they just wanna proof that their kid is smarter and better and proclaim to the world. academic excellence is important but i guess it doesnt really entice me. i would like to think, seeking to learn and experience God's world:) when i look at a structure so marvelous, i think..how gifted is the engineer who realised it and made it happened. how God has blessed him with such gifts. :):) marvels and drools*

back to sleep.

semester 2!:) p.s:new year too.

*hops around* welcome to the year of the rabbit!:D haha..apologies for my disappearance for 1.5months. i kinda slacked on blogging..but much has happened during this 1.5months:) too much to be typed and in addition, quite tiring on the fingers:P hahah...okok..update about myself. now i'm in semester2! wheeee!:D:D but sobs again 24academic units:S 8modules again. but i'm using my previous semester as a hindsight again on how God has brought me through and showed me how much i needed to rely on Him:):) "nothing is too big He cannot handle!" okies..going for 1130 class now:S

do share ur prayer requests with me if you have any!:) i'm most willing to pray for you!:):) in God's love.

D-1 day:)

this will be probably be my most updated post in the coming 2weeks or so. yes..i'm going into the battlefield. in this chilly cold period (air-condition blows), when the stakes are high, one has to stand up and be the man. the man that would rise up and draw His strength and courage to tatoo every A4 sized bits of paper with his pen and stir fear in those who reads and judges it:) i'm enji. an undergraduate at a nearby university awaiting to be unleashed into the great unknown, the exam hall. in less than 11hrs. prayers are much welcomed and greatly appreciated.

spinelli-mug spot 1:)

hmm..don't really know how to share my well-being thus far since the last post. so i thought...since it is 'rather undescribable', why not let the readers decifer or rather depict my photo. For example, "hmm..i think he must be having many sleepless nights. look at the 10kilograms worth of eyes bags" yea...something like that. let ur imagination go wild!:):) its good fun. but dont get step into the line of judging alright?:D yea..here is abit of background of what i'm up to. exams are in 10 days time:) and i'm in abit of a panic mode. not that i haven't been revising my work. but somehow, it is worrying to know that lecturers have yet to complete their syllabus and we're left to do self-study?! when there's really no time when every lecturer/module expecting a self-study for their 'unplanned for shortage of time'?? my apologies for giving you a false idea of my well-being thru the picture..deep down i'm constantly holding my detached self together, praying fervently that i wouldn't break and lose myself and for God's big hands to just shield me? nono..dont wanna hurt His hands..lift me? nono..sound like He's coming from the ground..scoop me? yea..scoop me from this sticky situation. and grant me the inner peace and knowing that He is God. :)