from the bottom of my heart.

somehow or rather, i wish you would know the battles i fight each day. every opportunity arises, i would seize and give to you. i brainstorm day and night thinking of how to draw this gap closer. literally/non-literally. i've evaluated a few. we'll see if it works. but i'm losing steam. a hand cannot produce a clap. it needs two to clap. help me out here. i'm trying. then often i'll ask myself again, "am i trying hard enough?" followed by (army style) "you ain't trying if you aint dying." but then again, how much is enough? we're talking about perfection now. i'm not. :l i love you.