D-1 day:)

this will be probably be my most updated post in the coming 2weeks or so. yes..i'm going into the battlefield. in this chilly cold period (air-condition blows), when the stakes are high, one has to stand up and be the man. the man that would rise up and draw His strength and courage to tatoo every A4 sized bits of paper with his pen and stir fear in those who reads and judges it:) i'm enji. an undergraduate at a nearby university awaiting to be unleashed into the great unknown, the exam hall. in less than 11hrs. prayers are much welcomed and greatly appreciated.

spinelli-mug spot 1:)

hmm..don't really know how to share my well-being thus far since the last post. so i thought...since it is 'rather undescribable', why not let the readers decifer or rather depict my photo. For example, "hmm..i think he must be having many sleepless nights. look at the 10kilograms worth of eyes bags" yea...something like that. let ur imagination go wild!:):) its good fun. but dont get step into the line of judging alright?:D yea..here is abit of background of what i'm up to. exams are in 10 days time:) and i'm in abit of a panic mode. not that i haven't been revising my work. but somehow, it is worrying to know that lecturers have yet to complete their syllabus and we're left to do self-study?! when there's really no time when every lecturer/module expecting a self-study for their 'unplanned for shortage of time'?? my apologies for giving you a false idea of my well-being thru the picture..deep down i'm constantly holding my detached self together, praying fervently that i wouldn't break and lose myself and for God's big hands to just shield me? nono..dont wanna hurt His hands..lift me? nono..sound like He's coming from the ground..scoop me? yea..scoop me from this sticky situation. and grant me the inner peace and knowing that He is God. :)

gospel rally!:)

hey people!:) today is day one of five days of steven tong's gospel rally at the indoor stadium!:) me going down with my cell..ehh..actually..1/8 of the cell ba..hahah..joanna and shinyee flied kite last minute:D at least got teetee and justin. alrights!:) do come if you all can make it alright? put down your cares and go for this rally in faith! ehhh...come ah...i have got a quiz tomorrow and i'm going for it! so no better reason for you not to come:D:D kk..okk..abit of a monologue here.

peace-out.

snapping from above;)

weekends are over:( tomorrow will be the start of me chionging my studies all the way till christmas :S yea..sounds kinda depressing huh? but but...knowing that through all these chaos, blurry and slurry moments in tertiary life, i know that God is constantly working at every step of the way. keeping me awake during lectures and opening my mind to gain new knowledge. i had a good e-learning week, enjoying fellowship with my cell group members and spending quality time chitchatting somewhere along the beach and somewhere close to the people snapping photos from above:D thanks!:) never forgetting that my source of strength comes from our almighty Father:):)

prayer requests: tomorrow at 430pm is my maths quiz:s totally going to have a staring incident between the paper and me..haha. yah..pray for a clear and meticulous mind to analyse and solve the math questions. most importantly to not succumb to peer cheating. seriously...and it sucks people into this all-so-tempting sinFULL blackhole. "where are you placing ur treasures in? in His Kingdom or the Devil's dungeon?" this world is going to fade away my friends, and time is running short. buck up now and don't look back once you're sprinting towards Him..THE RIGHTEOUS ONE. keep shining and pacing for Him!:) for everything else, there's Him.

carpe diem:)

to my mysterious readers, ever wondered why you're back visiting my blog even though you know that i was determined to privatise my blog? have you realised that i've became an integral part of your life just by reading updates about my well-being even though i don't have a clue of who you are? i would like to thank you if possible, personally..because deep down secretly, there's a part of you that has thought about me and i'm thankful for that..why? because God has taught all of us to exercise care and concern for the people around us. and you have taken that step in me:) i thank you for that. but however, it would be a real pity for you and i that if someday, i were to pass on, i would have never known that there was at least this person who has been or may have been praying for me, listening to my grumbles and rejoices and being there. and for yourself, you'll never get the opportunity again to say how you really felt on those days i grumbled or celebrated my life's happenings. we're each others' perfect stranger.

to agape love, is to exhibit selfless spiritual love to another. carpe diem:)

enjoy this song "我們呼求" and happy 21st birthday to a sister of mine rae!:):)

this is my thought:)

hello readers:) here is an announcement. i will be setting this blog to private coz it has come to my attention that people are linking me without my notification and i might have caused some unintentional worries. thus if you would like to view my blog, you can send and email to me to request and i might..consider allowing. but likely not.

chill out:):)

made a bathtub filled with water and blocks of ice for my afternoon shower:):) to all those who have a baby tub or a tub or anything similar, try filling it with blocks of ice and water:) i can assure you a rejuvenating experience:):) cheap and lazy way to relax at home. it's good for the body you know. in moderation of course.

Cold shower benefits:

# Brings blood to the capillaries, increasing circulation throughout the body.
# Cleans the circulatory system.
# Reduces blood pressure on internal organs.
# Provides flushing for the organs and provides a new supply of blood.
# Strengthens the parasympathetic and sympathetic nervous systems.
# Contracts the muscles to eliminate toxins and poisonous wastes.
# Strengthens mucous membranes which help resist hay fever, allergies, colds, coughs.
# A beauty aid to your hair and helps remove cellulite too.

enjoy:)

what happened to being true to yourself?

you were the one who shared with me. i'm not complicated. you dont have to share. i just wanted to prove my own point.

dried.

let me throw the towel now..i'm trying as best as i could. sitting in the front row, copying notes, jotting down questions and boldly asking them after lecture (partly also coz of making full use of my school fees:P sharks..okok..serious..serious), highlighting important pointers, doing tutorials, drinking herbal tea, keeping myself warm during lectures...blah blah blah. this week got 3 quizzes. two of which happened on tuesday. physics i scored full marks. mechanics, 70 percent. and tomorrow will be my last of the week. materials. i seriously think i'm going to fail this quiz..nothing is being retained and everything seemed really abstract. like martian language. i surveyed my friends' well-being thus far in mech engg. he's already thinking of his plan B, switching over to SIM to study business. others were, drop-out and sell soon kueh, work as property agent, do part-time first then see how.

everyone just seemed to be pessimistic about their prospects studying the next 2.5years..people ask, how are you in NTU? i seriously don't know how should i answer them..weigh them down with how stressed and overworked i am or delude them of how wonderful the yunnan garden is and the uberly cheap macdonald's meals and canteen food? sarah asked me on monday night just before bsf, "andrew, i heard you're stressed over your work..hmm..you dont look stressed at all..you're still laughing and smiley" i guess i hide my struggles really well.

above and beyond all these fluctuation of emotions and thoughts, i'm really glad that God has given me a sane and peace-filled mind to keep afloat and remain still amidst a storm. "yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift. let this be your present." :) "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." matthew6:34 :)

1st quiz!:)

"alamak...what is this...how come it is in ratio form.." my thoughts to one of the question when doing my quiz. haha..my first quiz!:):) thanks be to God! really..it was Him who gave me the peace before my quiz and by His grace, i aced it:) many thanks to the people who prayed and encouraged me before my paper;) haha..paiseh for not replying promptly. yup!:) friday is here!!:):) fridays are the best..although my day ends in the evening, i just feels good to know that the weekends are here:):) next week will have 3 more quizzes:S not farnie anymore..haha..hope my strategy to study for them works:D and i need to remind myself to pray at EVERY STEP of this arduous undertaking of tertiary education. hmm..being in university is like running 400m intervals. every semester you sprint as best as you can. hoping to achieve good timings. followed by a recuperation period to psych yourself up for the next lap. haha..repeat 6times. at the end of the 6th cycle, you know you've worked ur buttocks off and have built a really good stamina. now, this time, you're ready to make a difference:)

and that's if i can catch my breath:P

prayer requests. for bigger lungs and guidance to run correctly;)

sliced fish porridge:)

mans..didn't attend 2nd service today. went off straight after huoli to my cousin's baby's 1 month:D yes..*shakes my hand* i'm an uncle:D hahaha! darn..i'm aging. felt there was the need to give support especially to this cousin of mine. his mom passed away of cancer. some part of all of us wished she was here to witness her grandchild. my grandma was over the hills when she saw her...great-grandson? hahaha! photo was a must take:D she naturally stood up with her fragile self and paced herself slowly towards the mother of her great-grandson:):) wow..canon DSLR moment with extra flash:D she walked!! haha..kidding..not so exaggerated. but yah..it was quite phenomenal. then my other cousin whom we nicked, 'na-na' kept teasing my 85++ grandma saying.."ah po..what are you called now? ah popo? ah poo?" in mandarin. but i guess grandma had difficulty hearing:P haha! went back to church to meet up with my cell:):) for discussion..about how our cell could contribute to the community. weekend was dramatic. was down with mega fever on friday night but almost instantaneous recovery on saturday:D with lingering cough and sore throat. cranberry juice is now my favourite drink:D florida's natural especially:D it heals sore throat! no need to see doc;D i'm serious. haha:D good stuff. hee..just happy to enjoy my weekends in sickness and in health:):) thanks many many.

bak chor mee and fishsoup porridge!:D

escalating up to OC's open roof.:D which happened to be 4 ultra long escalators leading up to one of the more scenic views in singapore.:D overlooking part of the bustling streets of somerset in the evening's night lights:):) nope...there wasn't much breeze..instead it was mainly the exhaust of kitchen churning out sumptuous meals for the more fortunate people:D the exhaust didn't affect me a tiny bit. i was just happy to be there spending quality time:) eat, pray and love!:)

just cannot stop thanking God for every little implants of His doings in my life:) there's absolutely nothing left to fear with Him:):) coz He is faithful and i'm assured that every step of the way, as long as we're in Him, we'll have the peace that we yearn so much for and the everlasting joy of enjoying His purpose for each and everyone of us:):)

prayer requests!:) pray for grace to see beyond any difficult situations, to pray continually, to manage my time and direction to how to start my revision of the day's work daily:D yea..:):) thank you!:):)

mini potluck!:D

ever wonder what it is like to set out for picnic breakfast overlooking the city landscape and enjoying the morning breeze?:):) i had the best time:) with banana-walnut bread complemented with a tin of tuna:) with a bottle of homemade mineral water. what more with cute people;) haha:x just grateful to God for giving me time off my studies and just bask in fellowship:) felt alot of love. :)

thank you Lord for wowing me again and again!:) and i pray that You'll nurture all of us with Your guiding Hands!:) i'm submitting and putting This into Your loving Hands!

prayer requests: erm..this week there's a greater need to work even harder:) i would like to pray for God to grant me His peace in my heart with regards to my schoolwork and to be steadfast in His promise!:) also to be constantly reminded of His righteousness and dart away from any temptations to sin:) thank you for reading!:)

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, 'I will try again tomorrow'." - Mary Anne Radmacher

The Greatness of Our God

Hillsong LIVE- "The Greatness Of Our God", a beautiful exchange album. listening to the lyrics, reminded me how much we need God in ALL circumstances. enjoy:) can listen at bottom of page.

Verse 1:
Give me eyes to see
More of who You are
May what I behold,
still my anxious heart.
Take what I have known
And break it all apart
For You my God, are greater still.

CHORUS
No sky contains,
No doubt restrains,
All You are,
The greatness of our God.
I spend my life to know,
And I'm far from close
To all You are,
The greatness of our God.

Verse 2:
Give me grace to see
Beyond this moment here.
To believe that there
Is nothing left to fear.

That You alone are high above it all.
For You my God, are greater still.

Bridge: 2x
And there is nothing
That can ever separate us.
There is nothing that can ever
separate us from Your love.
No life, no death, of this I am convinced.
You my God, are greater still.

2x:
And no words can say, or song convey,
all You are the greatness of our God.
I spend my life to know,
And I'm far from close
to all You are,
the greatness of our God

Rejoice, i say again, rejoice:) coz we've nothing left to fear.

i'll be still and know you're God:)

first week of school...i totally do not want to think about it. depressing. the university life's image that i pictured in my mind's eye was the lush green pastures of the Nan Dah gardens with cheery students brisking around with their laughters and flashy laptop bags. but..it was not. in reality, there were no such people as students..there were slave mice. squiggling here and there to find their secluded cheese spot. to munch the freshly-baked cheese they've kept in their mini pockbags. knowing that they've to empty it into their tummies before more could be stored in their pockbags. they would gorge them to make space for more if not, just hid it at their secluded spot in hope that when the new batch of cheese comes, the old wouldnt be deserted. okok..so much nonsense..my apologies:p in the story, most of the students were the mice. trying as quickly as possible to feast upon the knowledge (cheese) so that the students (mice) would be on time to receive more knowledge to build upon the fatness. *the mice has high metabolism thus no need for The Rotating Wheel..yet* kk..need to feast upon my cheese now. text me, whatsapp me, anything:) my blackberry needs some waking up..it's kinda sleepy nowadays. haha.

thank you for creating me for who i am:) and thank yous for loving me.

i'll start with Him and end this phase with Him:)

dear Lord, this is it! i'm finally starting school today!:):) thank you for this opportunity for me to study! thank you even more for reminding me how importantly it is to see the goodness in every situation and to give thanks for:) Father, in this new studying phase i'm in, i pray that i may have the courage to take the the step of faith in you when a situation arises, to be a living salt and light to my surroundings, to be place my emphasis on you and not falter upon setbacks:) in this semester, this new start i commit to you. in Your Most Precious Name, amen.

Let Him be The Source of Our Foundation:)

my best friend:( gone.

YUEHANNNN!!! YUEHANNN!!!:( i'm actually quite sad now..the thought of not seeing my best friend for the next 5 months is just...just unbearable!!:( no more random hanging outs! and the communication level has just UP one more level now. like have to set a certain timing to skype or msn:S it is just not as freely now:( my heart just broke (not being overly-emotional) when we saw him off at the airport terminal 1..it's like removing a chunk of your pillar of support. i sincerely hopes he will be safe during his stay there and especially travelling europe:) dont like anyhow flash his EOS 7D and MacBook Pro around then kanna kope..choi! choi! yea..knowing him, i pray that he'll be safe, take good care of his belongings, have a fresh perspective of God's creation from the other side, be a living testimony to his other 2 friends that are going too (junyi is one of them ->super funny guy), build their friendship, and to control his finances;) haha. "yea..he'll be fine. yea..he'll be fine. yea..he'll be fine. coming back soon..yea..soon..he'll be fine" whispers to myself :P *emos one dark corner*

i need a hug:(

opened hearts:)

woke up later than usual today:D 10am. thank you for breaking a record with me:D i think it'll be difficult to recreate such a record anytime in the near future:P hee. i am typing here because i believe when characteristics are recognised, an identity will become clearer. and realising, is something to thank God for.

thank you for not hiding from your true self. being yourself:)
thank you for having the courage to ask and seek the truth in love. creating an avenue for open communication:)
thank you for always always never taking things/situations for granted:) and being so accommodative:)
thank you for being a spiritual buddy, willing to pray for me:)
thank you for being patient to hear me out. even when it's just trivial stuff and mostly nonsense.
thank you for lending a "pei-ing" hand even when you're tied down with things.

i believe this list will continue to fill up as time goes. thus i pray for God, in His time, to reveal more and more to me..and in His name, (His will and His thought) i commit this continual building and exercising of His love and teachings into each other's lives:) amen.

this is it:) i'm reborned.

in this new phase, i'm going heads on with Him. i pray that i will not leave Him or forsake Him. never to, in dire circumstances, doubt His plans for me. this is it:)

ntuccf camp :)

gone i am into the far eastern side of PORE where i will soak myself well into the great unknown of strangers, strangely likely to be christians. mingling and growing spiritually in His words:)

take care
p.s: welcomes gff back to sunny island!:D

O.R.D!:)

O.R.D LOH!:):) officially. thanks be to God for sustaining me to the very end!:) although there's much hype about being out of the system, it just feels weird to not have to go back. i'm so used to having something to attend to..but now, i feel lost. bluntly speaking. not knowing how to carry on this day forth:P now i've to move on into civilian life then into student life in a span of 22days:S hahah! have no idea how i'm going to get my act together so quickly..definitely need God to settle me in:)

prayer requests: do pray that i will make use of this period of rest wisely. i've created a list of do items and top of the list is to clean and pack my room. also pray for God to give me lots of wisdom to handle situations.

need to remove the misunderstanding leaves and continue to nourish with love!:)

song to share: a prayer :)

i pray that i may be able to hold firmly to this wonderful prayer of st. francis:) enjoy this song.

it was Festival Of Praise (FOP) on friday. :):) almost had to "fly aeroplane" for this..thankfully i'm out of this system in a few days time:):) *shrieks for joy* haha. many many thanks to gff for companying me down to the event:) YAY! i told you the event is going to be a good experience!:) my past experiences were "FOP is a must GO!, time to Let Go, Let God!" and indeed it allowed me to experience His presence descending upon me:) planet shakers and don moen came down to lead in the praise and worship:) DON MOEN LEH! i favourite him:) i felt that the sermon was a good reminder on the need to forgive and love the people around me. and also to be courageous enough to take little steps of faith in His works! yupyup:) got myself hillsong live "a beautiful exchange album" and don moen's latest "i believe there's more" (which i'm quite sure i bought it before:S) the session ended pretty late..2230hrs...people were streaming out even before the speaker could finish conveying. this act triggered a thought. "weighing between what mattered more, was beating the massive number of people going back home later on more important than actually receiving what God is saying through the speaker?" besides, all of us ended up going for supper:D:D so i guess 5mins more wouldnt really make an epic change.. good call by gff for deciding to stay. i stayed too:) thought it was rude and the message was abit of an answer i needed:) thanks be to God!

On Saturday was meimei's concert!:):) love notes 2. aiseh! solo leh! i thought the venue had good acoustics and the turn up was more than the previous! but but the highlight was mei! she was OUT OF THIS WORLD! she sang this japanese song which linguistically speaking, is rather difficult..and i thought that she, in that black satin dress, looked elegant and immensely dazzling. my favourite song was "prayer of st. francis" wonderfully sang.

prayer requests! please pray for good time management over these few days whereby i'm on leave:) pray that i can spend time reading His word and be vigilant about falling away.

p.s: thanks for sharing ur life-changing weekend!:) God, certainly in His time, let people see His beauty:) and also can continue to build each other up in Him!:)

prelude:)

prelude into my art journal:D only for my readers!:)

end of the weekends alr?! :(

weekends are just soooo sweet!:) yesterday, i woke up really early to attend pre-bible study and surprise to find myself sharing quite alot about the passages read. i usually keep my thoughts to myself...but i guess some part of me just wanna blast at the people conferencing together. part of me also need answers. :S yea...later met up with kmm to grab some essential for my art journal (which is debutting soon:P) and can i please say...its darn costly to create one. creativity comes a price. literally. headed back to church B2 to tutor:):) a force applied to an object, creating a motion in the direction applied by the force:D:D chilli moved. HAHA! then team A started. vocalist as usual subbing justin. :) this time it was different...it is with braces :D level of difficulty +10 cannot pronounce certain words properly. but surprisingly, can sing higher!:D:D coz mouth wider:S the practice and the actual was quite bad. primary coz half of the people are replaced and the dynamics...is just wrong. wells...we pulled through still. new song today! ermm called "rang wo ren shi ni" :) (let me know you)

someday i wish upon a shooting star that you will know, i have been and has always been. :)

Day 1: Did somebody punch me? :X

Status of Mouth Condition.

Mouth still can close.
Woke up to PAIN. tongue touches teeth *!!*brush teeth *!!* floss teeth *!!*
Slept facing up the entire night.
and yes, i was conscious throughout the night making sure i dont prata facedown.

that's all for now. :D havent eat breakfast yet:S wouldn't want to know what will happen. ><

requesting prayers! pray that i'll be able to adapt to braces quickly and less pain felt:) ohh i thank Him that there are no ulcers yet:):) thanks people!

vanilla twilight!:)

this song evokes the feeling of missing!:) misses.

on leave!:)

thus far, my week has been psyching myself for today:D trying to force food that i will probably never get to eat after 345pm. recently, my meals are rather fixed. if it isn't mee sua then it would be porridge (gotta wait till it turns cold) or kway chap with the ingredients chopped up into uberly small pieces:D like a demure lady taking tiny bite sizes of her food :D yesterday i caught inception with my fellow churchies:) it is a really really good show i must say. nothing short of original. "are we still dreaming?? quick where is my totem!" hahaha! on a serious note, it would be scary to believe in an idea or a thought so strongly without knowing that all of which was incepted by a stranger with a motive. haha do i make sense? :P anyhows, i had to take a leak just after the climax...2.5hrs..should have thought of it. 4.5stars of 5 for me;) going for another movie later with my cell! hahaha! this time is 'despicable me'. :D

i'm a korean movie star with braces!:D

thanks:)

if a picture could tell a thousand words, how more and special it would be if words are chosen carefully to describe and bring the grandeur of a priceless experience into ur wildest imagination:)

thanks for sharing:)

MM retreat:)

today marks a milestone!:) 6months into serving in music ministry team B:) it was a good time of fellowship and re-evaluating our goals and our serving in MM the past 6months. the session was really good!:) we discussed on our team shortcomings and strengths...overall, i saw everyone being open about issues and arising ones. good stuff!:) ohh ohh! before the retreat was the song practice for tomorrow's youth day service!:) we had a good time reciting the song:)

need to be in church by 830hrs for voice warming up:S gotta sleep now!:) germany, you know i'm your loyal supporter for world cup:) all the best laters!:)

ohhohh! forgot to add..flipped today when i realised my desktop got reformatted. thankfully got recovery thing but cost 100 SGD

:/

my gift called the acuteness of understanding. nothing cute or underneath anything or standing. just the ability to pick up details or sense quickly. be it a situation, a flow pattern, piecing imagination together, a habit..yahdahyahdah. i thank God for this gift i've never known since now..officially. :) then comes what to do with all these picking up..i form an opinion. an opinion, not judging but noting down mentally a learning pointer. sometimes, you'll see me reacting almost immediately, likely because it overwhelmed me. in this phase, i call it "my reaction". subsequently, the 'whys' will sink in and rationalisation will take place. this phase will be known as, "my reflection". ending of with corrections.

What you are is a Gift from God, What you become is a Gift for Him. :)

preview!:)

just got back from NDP rehearsal preview!:D hmm...i think it isnt as good as last year's. (coz i'm not in it:P kidding) haha i think partially its because of the rain, the orientation of the main bunk of audience, programme line up and last but most important (at least to me), the fireworks! the audience sitting in front of the stage could not even see a full blown firework!! mans..quite disappointed. went for dental appointment in the morning:) heehee. somehow, this year's world cup experience isnt as high as i thought it would be...like people saying "harr! ____ (some good team) didnt win ah! wah lao wey!!":)

approx. 1 more month ;)

-tuesday-

its just one of those tuesdays that has lots and lots of spring onions and basels:) going kboxing later at katong shopping centre with the church people:D ehh..haven been to one before. somemore the people going are all...erm..singers in their own calibre. think i'm going there to embarrass myself big time:P yups.

thanks for talking gff!:)

its time to let go:/

yes! last friday was really a blast!:D even the thunderstorm did not deter us from heading down to the beach to enjoy our fellowship!:) we had a great time playing ultimate frisbee, volleyball and celebrating grace's birthday:):) ohh ohh..thanks ah to those who were already at the beach and didnt pick up my calls..we walked from beach station to siloso back to beach station and to palawan lah!:S yupyup! later in the evening, the few of us went to auntie jen's house for a SN1/2 bbq:D it was atas to the max mans..fat juicy steak, skewed chicken kebab, potatoes and cheese dogs! yummies! the after effects then came on saturday...my throat swelled. strained all the way singing during team B. today totally chui tiao. but got thing was i managed to harmonise and people can actually hear me:) praise be to God:):)

the sunday school kids learnt about praying today:) and i thought it was a very valuable lesson for all of us. to learn to pray structurely:)) (1) confession (2) adoration (3) supplication (4) thanksgiving (5) silence yups! and i think silence is uberly important. to wait out patiently for God's plan to unveil to you!:) let go, let God.

Another Song to Share!:)

Out Here On My Own
by Naturi Naughton.
enjoy!:):) but dont emo. :P

went in, went out!

my weekends are soon disappearing! NOOO!!!:(:( this week has really been a breeze. had off on monday and tuesday. went back on wednesday. went out again for physiotherapy. the physiotherapist said i'm doing well! improving! he reckoned i continue to do the stretches and exercises and better if can swim!:):) i want to swim..swim...swim...swim..then went back in again to do my 24hrs duty...-.- totally shagged out on saturday to find out i need to chiong for a meeting at 1130hrs. :S hahaha. and more happening was i stayed over at errrrhemmm's house. heehee..gotcha!! no lah..yuehan's. stayed up singing then today, i totally forgot and buang the entire song. disappointed faces all round pierced into my body. yeahh..deserved that. i guess the only comforting thing that happened was i managed to have a chat with timmy over our breakfast this morning:D his hotdog bread and my sandwich, both made in breadtalk. best friend forever:):):):):):)

ths week there's sentosa! alrights!:):) looking forward to chilling out and enjoying the company of my fellow brothers and sisters!:):) pray that i can have good time spent with God and being an obedient child of God. also for the people who are not feeling well and having their exams!:) also also to care for the people needy of His strength and help!

Man need God. Not Man without God. :)

boaz:)

hooray!:):) i'm on nights out now. just happy to come out and have a breather:) thus far, my week has been the most fruitful in terms of spirituality thru out my term. i've had bible study with some of my buddies! i meant bible study bible study! like study the bible?!?!?! woa..it is really mind blowing to have such an opportunity to acquire such insights in such a setting:):) ohhh! we studied the entire book of Ruth. we chose it coz we wanted to know abit of background of Jesus' times and it was a really short book!:D:D i took home a good lesson on how a man should be or rather a trait a man should have and i think its important to hold onto this principle and be a good brother to your sisters!:) and a lesson for the ladies too!;)

a man of honour and who protects :)

really really?

how much of God do we really know? do we really know Him? really really. sometimes i just want to hide my face from all my servings in church. am i portraying a testimony worthy for non-believers to say, "wow, he must be a christian:)"? haha..erm..not that i lack esteem. but i feel guilty of my efforts in studying His word sometimes, living a God-centred life and meditating every step of my way. sometimes i think to myself, "how is it that i can remember how people are..etc etc and not be able to think and instantly remember His characteristics?" sheesh.

how we know God will be reflected the way we live our life!:) so let's continue to spur each other on in His truth and love!:) thank you for listening:)

yes i still do:)

what a week!:) never had i enjoy such a break ever since these 2 years. :):) caught up with many wonderful people around me:) it really feels different to have the opportunity to sit down and talk to people face to face. be it physically or on skype:) all your senses are activated! visual checked, audio checked, vocal checked:) unlike the norm of either looking at the texts online or listening to. the beauty of human touch. met up with meimei for lunch to have a chat:) we chatted like as if we were retired personnel with the rest of our lives to spend. haha. everything and anything under the hawker centre roofings:D i sort of knew we'll reach THAT question. and i replied, "yes i still do" continued debating abit then persisted with OTHER strings of related questions. :) it was a good updating of each others' lives and personal reflection:)

do you know i have many things i want you to know firsthand? details of events (like laughable and non-laughable) i would jot down hoping that when we meet again i can bring up and share.

4am: home. at last:)

joy so loud:D

thank you Lord for bringing me back safely!:)

internet!! superb!:):)

this is ultra cool!:) internet access!:) alrights all i can say for now. so far, everything is quite unusual but very much adaptable:) praise God for leading me thus far!:) tomorrow will be preparation for the outfield experience:) it has been a long day day...sun rises at 0500hrs and it doesnt set till 1900hrs. so the daytime is longer which equates to us working abiiiittt longer than usual:D quite tired now. thanks for listening:) will continue to update whenever possible:)

p.s: the bubble tea here is NT$10 = $0.50! whee! happy man!

there's NO STOPPING ME NOW!! :D:D:D

taiwan here i come!!:D:D:D buy something, eat something, buy something, eat something!!:):) worry not my friends!:) you're all constantly remembered...while í'm eating XXL chicken and drinking bubble tea!:P:P okok but don't worry okay? i'll be awesome in God's hands!:):) AWE-SOME I'M TELLING YOU!:)

:..(

"hello God, its just me again. can you hear me? i'm upset. upset at the things i know are not a pint worth worrying. but i just can't help but be affected by these things. Father, this race i'm on is freakishly tough and i need you Lord. sometimes i just want to let out a good shout. like 'AAAARRRRrRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!' and eat a big bowl of bimbibab. Father, speak to me. i'm struggling with the obedience towards your words. i need your awesome strength to remain rooted in you, Lord. please nourish me with your words and works daily and renew everyday! and that i may grow in your likeness and fulfil your will for me: many thanks. amen."

The heart never takes the place of the head: but it can, and should, obey it.

happy 21st birthday mei!!:):):)

this post is especially dedicated to a dear dear sister of mine:) her name is jiayun:):) it is her 21st!! hoohoo! whee! zoom! boom! zham! bang! haha! congratulations for successfully transiting from an old teenager to a young adult!:D *aww~! meimei zhang3 da4 le! tears roll endlessly*

up,up,down,down,up,down,up,down!!:):)

POP loh! :D yes! i've passed out again! no more course for me!!:):) whee! so many things happened last week...jeep 'broke down'. then when the towing truck came and setup everything, suddenly jeep came to live. -.- so paiseh lah! the people took so much effort to setup all the towing equipment under the scotching sun then the jeep pang seh. Iron Man 2 is out! :D:D and i'm gonna catch it this week before i fly! ohh mans..so many things to do this week! ohh by the ways! i'm on OFF this week! except tmr night. need to go back to send my baggage.

tomorrow morning i've got physiotherapy! whee!:):) its been forever (one month) since i last visited them. =) then go shopshop for food to bring to taiwan! then must continue making errrrhemmm for various people. ohh ohh! going to bsf (novena) on tuesday night coz cant go tomorrow night.

YAY! can piano the whole week! read the whole week! go out the whole week! etc etc!:D:D wahhhh..i'm on cloud nine already:__D moved to tears! anyways, today was fuN! continued practising my guitar skills today until my finger tips all purple and numbed:D:D super super.

last week of course!:)

this weekend passed me by so quickly!:(:( ohhh wells..its really saddening to not have 2nd service today. with the abnormally huge amount of time to spare, i just felt a little lost and empty. so took this time to have an early lunch with the guys and with timmy! but timmy deserted me for LeLe. they're super duper best friends forever! both sitting on the wooden platform of sushi tei facing the foot reflexology shop eating. why facing there? coz inside got a 32inch LCD TV playing the cartoon series of Mr Bean:D awww..yea.. after lunch, the guys and i parted. they went to LAN while i went to exchange my Sing dollars to Taiwan NTs. changed 400dollars:) whee! after which, returned back to church to help out with the packaging of the exam goodies for the examees:D it was quite chopchop. then i studied my business stuff while assisting chen wei in her mathematics. hmm..she needs more practice and be exam smart:) but i can see that she is a diligent person. potential A1 student:) soon after, here i am, back home and talking to myself with my mom chanting "lai2 chi1 lai2 chi1, yao4 chi1 lai2 chi1" multiple this over a period of 15mins with 1 min intervals.

next week! i'll be mostly outfield again. :S frowns and sulk then pout. please pray for this week to end quickly so that i can enjoy my short break then after:):) recently, i've been reading this book, "i kissed dating goodbye" by joshua harris, we used this during one of the teen camps. i really enjoy reading this book!! the contents inside the book are sightful and are aligned to God's teaching! thank you God for keeping me in line:) yup!:) if you would like to read it, can ask me for it!:) i'll lend it to you..after i'm done:D

p.s: the sandwich making session was a success!:):) i think we should have a small group activity lesson plan so that in future it will be easier for the group leaders to prepare. instead of cracking and squeezing brain juices for ideas. :P:P but they enjoyed it:) today is Serve Others other Than Yourself Day:) a random act of kindness.

i learnt something today!:)

actually somethings. okok:) before going there, i went to ji du xiao xing xing yesterday!:) as usual, became the piano korkor complemented with timmy and his gang's additions. timmy is super cute!:) love him! haha! okok... i dont usually express myself like that but..i enjoy talking to him and him sharing his imaginative world with me:):) treated the kids with half my packet of medium fries which eventually became theirs:D one boy took one fry and sectioned it into 3 parts to share with his bro. it was quite a long fry. hee:D but why 3? this way they can play scissors, paper, stone for the third part:D:D:D super funny. okok.. back to what i've learnt today.

today we had Da Zhu:) we had this year's korat team come up to share about their experience:) joyce shared about her giving her first (first time sitting on a motorbike) to mam. *right eye twitches* ahahaahha...yea..jiaxin shared too about her encounter with a male chinese-thai stranger who generously gave directions and provided for her team all the way to the doorstep of Alpha centre. skeptical at first but it was her believe that it was God's providence that allowed her to take that leap of faith to trust the stranger. brave. admirable. :) then pei xuan shared about her trip to yunnan, china!:) wow i tell you..i'm confident God did showed her His wonders and how He used her as His tool! *inspired to go and spread His word!* "God did not make people who are able willing but people who are willing, ABLE!" and i totally agree with that!:):) she too was helpless and clueless of what she can provide for the people there but God led her! i'm encouraged!:):)

before i end this post, here is something for you to take home to too!:) to truly aid someone, you need four characteristics of the heart. a loving heart, a sincere heart, a patient heart and last but not the least, a caring heart:):) thank you for listening:) continue to live in the fullest of Christ:) and if you've a prayer requests, you're invited to text me or tag me or call me and i'll pray for you most willingly:)

keyboard:)

enjoy this song by Streams of Praise:) "he deng en tian"



embracing God's beautiful sunset:)

God's second chance:)

just now i met with a car accident. :/ nothing happened to me. thank God. after the whole epic happening, it jolted me abit. in my thoughts and shaken abit physically. what if i departed that very moment? what came to my mind first was God. nothing else mattered. what am i to say to Him when i flutter those wings up to heaven and meet Him? i havent reflected upon my day's sins, confessed and asked for forgiveness..how am i to meet Him now?! moreover, i know i havent been an obedient christian. i was guilty for my life itself. i was ashamed of my living. slowly, i thought about myself not being able to tell the people i loved that i loved them. like if i didn't come online to talk today, will you believe that i cared for you and loved you? i would have regretted not telling you everyday that i loved you and cared for you. thank you God for giving me a good wake up call to know that every step i take, i've to take it in Your caution and in faith!:) thank you for saving me. i thank God i'm alive today:)

alma mater's band concert!:):)

grace note!:) attended st. hilda's band concert! ïmpressions X. invited by grace chew. she played the flute and the piccolo:) the performance was not bad. could have been better if not for the acoustics at victoria concert hall. met a few of my school friends. long time no see:D and one of them sang! wow i tell you...he's quite spectacular. josh groban impersonator. hahah! yea.. outstanding fella. today's EASTER SUNDAY! the services were great!~ we had this evangelistic outreach at 2nd service titled, "ying1 ta1 huo2 zhe4'' (because He lives). the band was outstanding, the testimonies by the two cambodian, sivon and chann were very personal and insightful of the situation in cambodia. ahhh~ i think a trip to cambodia MUST be made!:):) this weekend has reminded me well of what Jesus has done for us and how we should live our life everyday!:) looking forward to church alr!:)

coming week it'll be more tests for me and much hands on. pray for time to spend time reading God's word and living a life worthy for Him. also to care for the people around me!:) jiayou people!:)

tomorrow's sunday foretold!:D

i'm writing this post is to fill in for tomorrow!:):) its my first time being projectionist!:D:D up, down, up, up, down. that was basically my job scope. to push the up and down arrows at precisely the right moment so as to allow the service to flow roughly smoothly:P now i know what is it when people start saying things like 'easy worship' ..'live feed'...'repeat slide'..etc. thank you gff and ailing (the sign-on projectionist:P)!! later when to meet up with my best buds from secondary for dinner. we crapped alot as usual and the usual bringing up all THE MOMENTS or LIFE THREATENING experience caused by me. its somehow unnerving to pre-empt whether my friends are still the same or they have changed. same still. quite worrying:P but at the same time it helps with the recognition that yes, its them:) yea..tmr i'll be going for li ying's concert!:D YAY! not sure who's going besides meimei. then will go back in after the concert:( haiz..dreads. and i'm starting course next week! whee!:) and good friday is next week!:)

a prayer answered:)

time flies man. its almost april already!:D:D i must have really been enjoying my life that it seems to pass me by so swiftly. yea..today i subbed justin again as vocalist:) it was nice to sing into the mic. like it brings confidence to the vocals coz always kanna forced to kiss it. ohh! then later i bought one of the handphone pouches the sunday school kids made for $5:):) its striped-orange. hee. then ate a sumptuous lunch at subway with the jumbo sausage from marketplace and a double cheese burger w/o pickles:):) yupyup! and a cup of bubble tea to let everything sink down. caring seminar was up next:) learnt about how to dispute our wrongful thinking or beliefs and exchange our wrong for God's right:)

what's up this week for me..emm..my course will start on the 29th. and i'll be moving my things to another location this week:) can pray for me! pray for the course to go easy on me..and for me to know that my source of strength comes from God alone:) pray for my lower back. its doing well said my physiotherapist but need to pay special attention when doing things that require it:) not too sudden. gradual:D

hee..and an apartment is found!:) YAY!:):)thanks be to God. though it may seem to be abit farther than the previous, i'm sure God has situated it there so that His beautiful creations along the way can be appreciated!!:) whee! so happy:) misses.

sunday's monologue:D

its nice to talk to myself once again:D hee..a monologue. erm..nothing much to say. finished my duty today morning..feeling tired with evident black eyebags. yea..what's up for me will come at the end of the month:) and beginning of april:) hmm..going for course. liying's band concert on the 28th. grace's concert on the 3rd april which happens to be my secondary school:D YAY going back to see the aging teachers:):) yupyup!:):) pray for auntie weifang. she's recovering from her knee surgery. pray that she'll be able to recover swiftly and come back to sunday school!:):) pray for my health and my cares!:) have been thinking alot lately and i need God's guiding hands:)

thank you for reading readers! ohh and yah..i'll be subbing justin again this saturday so going for teamA:) i part you all with a saying, "We are what we repeatedly do, excellence then is not an act but a habit". hmm..think about it. If every morning you wake up to a morning, reading a paragraph or two of the bible, naturally your command of the language you're reading will improve and more so your walk with Him will deepen and strengthen;) likely. (tell me what you think of what i just said:))

i'll give until there's nothing else:)

Give! give all of God's love you've got while you still can!:) dont wait till you're sick and unwell! coz there's only so much time in one's life to give:) here is a song by relient k, 'Give until there's nothing else'. its one of my favourite christian rock band in my younger days:P enjoy;) post a comment!

26 is actually 22:D

unlike the mundanity of some weeks, last week was different:) my army pals shook my hands and congratulated me on turning 22:D little did i know what was happening. they positioned themselves strategically leading into one of the cubicle in the office. i happily shook this one. that one. this one. that one. just when i stepped into the cubicle.. -.- i was markerlised by red, black and blue all over. 20 vs 1...err..kinda cheating right? haha. yea..then they treated me to this restaurant at burlington square called, "fatty's restaurant" haha. black pepper crab, fried cereal prawns, fried yam, omelette, curry fishhead and sambal kang kong:D wooh! good stuff man!:D but i think it burnt their pockets. heehee:P and birthday wishes subsquently came flowing in like niagara falls:D so much love from so many people!:):) thank God for planting so many wonderful people in my life:):) blessed!

okok:) hmm coming week will be quite chillaxed:) tuesday got 'treasure hunting' and thursday got 'ki-ka-boom!' haha! i hope you know what i mean:P ohh ohh! tmr i'm going BSF!:D YAY!:):) i'll go right after i see my specialist in the late afternoon:) yupyup! hmm can pray for my specialist appointment tmr! pray that the doctor will use the knowledge God has given him to correctly and accurately diagnose my problem:) and also for my preparation for my 'NAPFA' test. building back up my stamina again:) my sunday school kids too! most of them are having common test this week. pray for endurance to mug, ability to absorb and apply knowledge during their test and to not be tempted to cheat!:D:D thank you!!

misses:(

jaded:S

aaaaahhhhhh~ so lei! :/ finished my guard duty this morning then chiong to church then practice for lent service then attended caring seminar part 3:D:D i think i'm going siao ting tong. haha. erm..yah..later gotta book in. :S anyhows, my week has been a valley-like-shaped:D hee. so happy and at the same time nervous that i could make it to mei's farewell!:):) my friends are just superb people lah! zhu peng gou you! *translation "pig-fri-dog-ends"* we just went sneaky sneaky:P *apologies cannot reveal online* a thrilling experience i would say. on my way down, honestly, i was anxious, my heart was racing exceedingly fast (partly due to the 140km/h drive) and i didnt know what to say or how to react upon reaching. my friends still said they will be my 'wings'. one on each side. the very moment after they said it, i turned back. they smoked out. thanks lorr. but yah..managed to pull out the courage to speak to her. WOW! :) although my voice was a little jerky and knees were shaking, there i was in front of her, talking. i'm not going to share the contents but i thank her for answering. :) answering some of the questions in my head. things are clearer now:) there's room for all of us to grow. tagging along would be patience for the faithful Lord to guide. :) may i trust that Our Providing Lord showers love and patience for this seedling of friendship to be nurtured tenderly in His time:)

i want to say more! :) but i'll leave it till sometime in the week:):) the gist is about patience that is inline with today's sermon;) ãhh rejuvenated already in His word. jiayou!:):)

prayer requests: pray that i'll spend good time reading and reflecting His word, re-reading what've learnt over today's caring seminar part 3 (caring in exhortation), caring and praying for the people around me! which reminds me, azarel is going to scotland alone to find his sister?!?! pray for safety! *awww..so sweet:):)* keeping my testimony for Him alive and burning for Him!:):)

prayer requests:)

pray for my MRI scan tmr:( tmr i'll be going to Camden Medical Centre at 0830hrs to do my MRI. pray for a good and accurate diagnosis of my back. pray also for mei. she'll be leaving on thursday:(:(:(:( ultimate sadness. pray that she will adapt back to study life after 2 months of solid break...tsktsk:P yah..also for her next placement:):) pray that the seniors and patients will be understanding and patient with her:):) haha! ohhh..pray also that i can come out on thurs to send her off. which i really really hope to have even if it means doing more duties:) keep her safe and warm too!:)

thank you Lord for everything:)

lunar new year wrap!:):)

"steamboat ah! steamboat! barbeque ah! barbeque!" yup! the past few days were eat, catch-up, eat, mahjong a little with my uncles and aunties, drink (oolong tea), eat, and visit here and there:D. today is probably the last of my visitations. my sis and i went to help out with the PRCs teens cny celebration at hongyan chuan dao's place @ cedar ave. haha. not many people went, but i'm sure we had fun fellowshipping:):) and i managed to learn how to make jiaozhi!!! wheee!!



waiter/chef/gentleman/jiaozhi-man?

super fun just chilling out with them:) i remember some of their names! He Jia, Yi Heng, Wen Jun, Jing Yi..etc etc. see! i can still rmb their names..but whether or not i can match their names to their faces is all together another issue:P:P yup! later in the evening, went over to my all time favourite tutors' place @ dover rise! they're the best!:):) i felt so at home at their place...ohh the husband and wife both taught me before. we talked about how much we've grown over the years, shared each other's cares and worries and laughed about how come only their tuition centre's aircon is always so cold and the other units in the building MUCHEM sauna. they're Christians! :):) we exchanged our prayer requests and prayed for one another:) ahhh~ it was good fellowship:) they rock!



Mr & Mrs Low - The Best Tutors in the World!:D

:) lunar new year!

in 10mins time, i wanna wish all a happy prosperous chinese new year:):) let another year in the lunar calendar be filled with passion to grow in spiritual maturity and to experience & testify His love that never fails in our lives in turn exercising this love to the people around us!:)

happy valentine's day to you!:) here's a kiss :* haha! i wish.

mid-week wed!:)

yup! using i-net at an internet cafe nearby:) my ar.my dudes are gaming now and i'm respawning from my death. :):) thus i'm writing this entry. here is my prayer request!:) tomorrow i'll be going for another of my many physiotherapy @ SGH:) pray for the therapy effect to take effect on my back. haha. yea...pray also for meimei's headache that has been ongoing for 3days already:(:( pray that her cares will be lifted!:) and teow to draw inspiration for his poster:) thank you very much!

p.s: i ran and ran today. i crossed the finish line and hobbled aside and looked up to the sky and gasped. stretched my lung muscles to take in a little more. and i thought of a couple of random things..God's strength, you, my wobbly thighs, milk tea, the need to clean my room and my friend that dragged my a** pass the finish line. my random happening:)

ehey!:D

ehey! haha..i like this sound!:):) its like something that is going to fall or break then you sound off this attempting to rescue. do i make sense? haha. sunday liao. went to church by bus today. i know my family will confirm be late again. thus yah...made it a point to bus this morning. yup!:):) it was nice to go to church early, grabbing kaya toast and tea on the way and sitting at the amphi-theatre waiting for people to stream in. nathalie and her sister nicole came in first. :D cant help but laugh. nathalie wearing her OBS shirt?!?! that memorable huh..hahaha. so i asked and asked. and she poke and poke. *fast forward* sunday school kids were good. felt that by using structured questions and answers to analyse a passage was a wonderful thing to have. the students used their brains! :):) happy that my group had alot of self control. after 2nd service, went to celebrate my grandma's 76th birthday at some restaurant in OCBC centre. yea..talked to my cousins. uncles and aunties, as usual, "wah! you've grown taller and fitter alr ah?" i lamed back, "no lah! its the low ceiling that drew the contrast *roll eyes*" so approached AH MA and shook her fragile hand. chatted with my cousins who were mostly 15 to 19. went back to church for the da zhu bible study. :) kenna surprised with a feb babies chocolate cake. shared with tuan qi my prayer requests for the year.

some thoughts i gathered from teow which i thought it was quite true. its about caring for others. what happens when there's no reciprocation from the person whom you would like to care for? do you still insist caring for that person? he shared that sometimes when a person reacts this way, could be coz the person is more comfortable sharing with another caregiver. not meant to be rude or dao. insist in caring? maybe more on a superficial level coz the person just isnt comfortable sharing with you.

i guess today will probably be the last time i'll be seeing you in singapore. can't thank God enough still seeing you back in singapore:) wells, you know that i'll continue to keep you in my prayers. keep on shining for the Lord and know that His love never fails. take care mei with truck loads of His faithful love!:):)

friday!:)

weekends are here and i'm typing a post:) this post will not describe anything about (ar.my). it'll be about my yesterday, my friday:D yesterday morning i went for my physiotherapy @SGH. did the usual. physiotherapist got a shock at the extent of 'damage' after my outfield. haha..'work ur magic!' i thought to myself. later after it, i went to funan to get a cheap haircut from kimage school of hairdressing:D quite an experience. i got shampoo and cut for $6. beat that! :D yup! and if i made an appointment a day earlier, there's 20%discount. beat that twice! yahh..got a chinese hairdresser. she was the highlight of the cut. after listening to my requirements, she got so overwhelmed by my expectations that the moment she picked up her comb and combed my hair, 'tatatatatatatatata' was the sound that rang in my head. the comb tapped me. for the next 45 mins. nice..i told her, '放轻颂, just cut what u're most confident and we'll work from there' hahaha..morale boosted. her teacher took over. haha! now i look like a rebel. :S

double-chinned smile:))

这个严重。。i was feeling somewhat sad as you can see from my previous entry. its extraordinary how just by a 1 sec glance from her would change everything. maybe its just my plain stupidity..but i didnt feel at all sad anymore. instead i felt a deep sense of blissfulness. :D kidding. erm..a little. but more to 'i sense your presence' and 'i'm thinking of you' for that moment. haha. (readers, i know you'll probably think that its all my wishful thinking but that was really what i felt:P) i guess i'm still holding onto the 诺言 we made. that's to entrust this friendship to God and if He permits, we'll find each other in His time. :) *itunes playing corrinne may's 'everything in its time'* how timely. so yah..i'll continue to let this friendship grow. although a little 慢 and 长 and 远 but i trust that God will shine His light for my feet to walk in the direction most favourable to Him. :)

i like her:) certainly.

p.s: pray for my 3days outfield this week. for safety and strength. to keep reading His word and obedience to His teachings.

ketchup.

ketchup oozing out of a broken heart.
would carl's jr freeflow be the correct dialysis?

thoughts illustrated:):)

hello!:) sunday is today and today is small group activity!:):) haha! well.. as usual we cook up a fabulous an hour and a half of exciting get to know each other games! moomoo turned intro turned whacko. :D wells, interesting batch of students being talkative and mama-drama thru out the games. i was surprised! thomas. he spoke up in front of everyone!:):) and i give thanks to God for that! beginning of a change. wonderful! later, prep for vocalist at 2nd service:) many of the songs were new to the congregation. we sang and worshipped Him:) ahh~ peace and serenity. after the service, zoomed out of church to have a quick lunch with my army mates at Astons signature, Suntec?!?!?! suntec back to city hall= 18mins of double quick pace/fast walk. i couldnt miss the Caring Seminar. :):) the seminar is broken down into 6 parts. today's was an introduction to Christian Caring. "what does caring really means?", "what are the 3 levels of operation in caring ministry?", "looking at the 10 layers of self-protection"..etc.

"And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another and all the more as you see the Day approaching."
hebrews10:24-25


its heartwarming to know that somebody cares for you:)



*mei and me*


who is willing to understand and accept who you are:)



*singing karaoke out in the sea*


even when everybody is fighting their own war



*AK47 and me*


this love and care just keeps you smiling even in the darkest moments!


*tunneling*

i care. do u?:)

everything in its time:)

what a weekend!:) even though i come home to a worned out body, the moment i step into church, i feeeeeeeeel rejuvenated! like refresh, eating fresh subway! hahaha. wells, i strongly believe its God's strength sustaining me. caught up with meimei:) although it wasnt long but i'm glad she's keeping her spiritual life alive! YAY!:):) i ought to learn more. later in the afternoon, i went for team B practice!:D lalalaalalalaalalalalaalala. sing. sang. sung. its really sanctifies me to sing for Him. yup! following that had a quick and healthy yong tau foo dinner and flashed to jiduxiaoxingxing. even though i wasnt much help there..coz i'm like the piano korkor there everytime there's jiduxiaoxingxing. hahah!:D:D but there was TIMMY!!! aka YANGYANG! i love him! he's always cheery and imaginative. i enjoy being sometimes the Dark Lord, Darth Vader, Smeagol asking for the crystal and sometimes a camping buddy. hahah! and hey! dont underestimate this kiddo. he can speak perfect english. only the occasional hyper activity that confuses his train of thoughts. :D

this week will be yet another. my prayer requests. to continue to care for the brothers and sisters around me, to hold onto His word firmly, have the patience to wait for His answer and give myself a chance to grow. :) thank you for reading thus far. if you've a prayer request you would like someone to pray for, just tag it or text me or call me!:) i'm most willing to extend my care and love for you!;)

i'll care for you. that's a promise:)

sundayyy!:)

the sermon for today, "wo suo3 xi3 yue1 de". essentially, God loves us still despite our disregarding/disobedient behaviour but also means that He dislikes the wrong behaviour. sermon also included the part about how one who thinks only for himself is less so than one who exercises a thought for others. *bad translation from chinese* thoughts suddenly lit up. suddenly it brought upon me that yes! i know that love is unconditional but i also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and well, strangely easy to be mistaken for loathing. no gifts, no demonstrations of devotion. nothing but knowing the other loves you. just the other's heart in exchange for yours. :) i know i've given and taken my heart to and from God many times. now! i want to present my heart wholeheartedly to Him. :):) thank you Lord for loving me!:)

"I often feel like i'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
but i'm stubborn in the things i believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold onto patience and watch for the sign

coz maybe there's another plan
One i still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how see"

Everything in its time - Corrinne May

team B 090110!:)

i just like singing to God:) giving my best to Him. not exactly the best of harmonising that will blow the minds of people. just my frank, sincere and humble vocals:) i enjoy the practices! its been my second so far..and i want longer team practices! :P sadly i noticed, its always swift and tidy. sorting and arranging the sequence of flow within the stipulated 120mins. :D excitingly fast and furious. haha! tomorrow 2 of my army dudes will be coming to my church. one of which isnt a christian but is willing to listen to religious viewpoints. other is abit of a backslider. i pray that God will reveal His Goodness to them, trigger their deepest most thoughts and invite them back home once again. :) thank you for catching up a little. though i really wish someday we can take a long gentle stroll and just chat or sit down and chat over a cup of espresso? haha:) i guess not. didnt expect her to talk about the present. thought that she thought it was inappropriate or disapproving for a present. maybe even frustrated at the many layers of wrapping and the bubble wrap:P i quite liked the bubble wrap though. but but i really thought about it really thoroughly before deciding on it... coz she said she didnt cut her hair there the entire year and she seems to like curls and somemore i feel sad everytime the coldness of winter kicks in. thus warmth + hair + curls = _______. if not i wld have gotten the thing whereby you shake then will produce warmth to the fingers. (for pianists to use) :D yahh..but how to explain. :S ohh wells.

i thank God for life's simple happenings and pleasures:)

the prodigal son!:)

a song to share!:) enjoy.

020110:)

3...2...1! i threw my lightstick.. not realising that i totally missed the countdown:D hahah! apparently, i believe, many did too. happy to see many faces around this year:) one would be nathalie. why her? coz i've seen her grow from beginning of sec1 to sec2. and she changed:) from shy, closed and irritating to jolly, interactive and very much less irritating:D plus her dad usually curfew her. then now can stay overnight?! quite happening ah! another was grace. the flutist-to-be. she knows my bro somehow. and first thing she said to me was "are you hosea's brother? coz you two look alike" i was surprised at how open she was to the youth ministry. although quiet but enjoys our fellowship. interesting person. anyhows, i thought it was a terrific start to kick off the new year with a mini service:):) it really sets the mood for the year! and a perfect reminder for me to remain focus and diligent in the understanding and retaining of His word. later in that morning, we all went to macs (bras basah) to brunch with yuanguang's mom's treat!:) then cabbed home w sis. K.O upon touching down my room and woke up to douhuayoutiao's 3pm gathering. haha! victor measured me to be the most chui looking after the countdown. thanks. then ate dinner and supper.. kenna conned by yeti and guantee. @#&$^#!!.

this is 2010! :)) today was my first team practice! team B i am! :D i like singing! :):) many thanks to weijie who patiently guided me. i'm all psyched up to praise Him and LIVE ONLY FOR HIM!:D thank you Lord for giving me yet another opportunity to love you and care for the brothers and sisters around me!:) i place you Lord above all else and i will focus only on what's important to you.

the start of something good. :) to be more like Him.