dried.

let me throw the towel now..i'm trying as best as i could. sitting in the front row, copying notes, jotting down questions and boldly asking them after lecture (partly also coz of making full use of my school fees:P sharks..okok..serious..serious), highlighting important pointers, doing tutorials, drinking herbal tea, keeping myself warm during lectures...blah blah blah. this week got 3 quizzes. two of which happened on tuesday. physics i scored full marks. mechanics, 70 percent. and tomorrow will be my last of the week. materials. i seriously think i'm going to fail this quiz..nothing is being retained and everything seemed really abstract. like martian language. i surveyed my friends' well-being thus far in mech engg. he's already thinking of his plan B, switching over to SIM to study business. others were, drop-out and sell soon kueh, work as property agent, do part-time first then see how.

everyone just seemed to be pessimistic about their prospects studying the next 2.5years..people ask, how are you in NTU? i seriously don't know how should i answer them..weigh them down with how stressed and overworked i am or delude them of how wonderful the yunnan garden is and the uberly cheap macdonald's meals and canteen food? sarah asked me on monday night just before bsf, "andrew, i heard you're stressed over your work..hmm..you dont look stressed at all..you're still laughing and smiley" i guess i hide my struggles really well.

above and beyond all these fluctuation of emotions and thoughts, i'm really glad that God has given me a sane and peace-filled mind to keep afloat and remain still amidst a storm. "yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift. let this be your present." :) "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." matthew6:34 :)