broken recorder:)

like a broken recorder. the scene stucks in your mind and there's almost nothing you can do. no fast forwarding, no rewinding or deleting. i cant stop thinking of it the past week. would it be inappropriate to invite along to view yh's film exhibition? would it be kinda far and late for? there're things i love to share and listen to the opinions and know how things are going but does it matter? there're thousand and one things far more relevant to do and to hear to what i've to say. i silence myself. keeping these to myself. why? coz deep down i'm so darn afraid. afraid of disappointing. of not being able to become a better person. of not being able to see a smile or hear laughter. :) something close to my heart. its a secret.

"where are we isnt who we are" isnt it? :) we're the children of God. therefore we're changed.

26 short films ADM:)

the short films ain't bad at all:) considering they are still students. they're just short of being professional. comments coming from a person who spends a quantitative amount of time in the threatres and has a good friend who fills me in detail of what's up in the arts scene. talented bunch of people from NTU ADM:) some developed their own style whereas the others tried to mimic certain directors. brought my brother there. i'm sure he had an eye-opener when he saw what the students did as schoolwork/project work. :D

:) i think i'm an arts' appreciater. a little bit of a critic too:P

birds and their droppings:)

HohOhOhoh! i've passed my jeepy test!:):) thank you all for ur prayers!:) truly by God's grace that i passed. today, i went islandwide! drove ard the country in an auto jeep! no windows, no doors, no windscreen, no nothing. just me and my jeepy buddy roaming and attracting attention. plus our green mushroom helmets which accentuated the aesthetics of the martian look. :D i want to own drive a jeep someday!! ehh... ... no no no..too noisy and fuel consuming. i want to drive a convertible one day!:):) let my hair down and ride with the wind~ ~ ~ away with the untrained birds dropping their dropppings and feathers. :( and kicked up leaves.

tmr is towing. towing. towing. towing. :D:D pray! :):)

how are you doing?:)

lalala~:)

morning blog!:) off to jeep now. pray for all drivers to drive safely, instructors and trainees to have a wonderful time guiding and learning and for teow and meimei's exam to lean on God's powers to do well!:):) take care!

He is faithful:)

much awaited has finally arrived. :) not really sure of what to say. how to say. didnt know if i could recognise her anymore which indeed happened for a moment. after sunday school, as almost always, xinjie and teow would "thanks:)" *drops their group register on my palms* as i scouted for wanwen. then using my sense of sight, i saw wanwen sitting up there talking to somebody in a black dress. "wahh..lazy to climb up the stairs leh." :P i said. "ehh..who's that?" xinjie squinted and said. using my magnified vision, i squinted a little in the same direction. *is that her...?* i thought to myself and proceeded up the stairs to have a closer look and of course executing my mission at the same time. :) it was. "hello!" that was what came out first. "hello kor!" she replied. i extended a hug. affirmative. she's back and she's safe:) she had to go. me too for 2nd service. couldnt help but take a few moments to look at her happy self. and her in her black dress. stunningly beautiful. okay! end of story.

really happy she's back home safe and sound:) thank God for keeping her safe and well while away and bringing her back safely. this is something to thank Him for. and i praise Him for that:)

pray for my jeep driving test on tuesday. meimei's test tmr:) teow's asian art history tmr:) thank God again for bringing her back safely:)

100th post!:) enjoy.

i am severely lack of rest. (##s) didnt sleep last night! waited the whole night and morning for leonids to appear in grandeur. only caught a few. some missed due to inconsiderate flashlights of the camera which caused my eyes to blink involunteeringly or rather instinctively. darn!! but anyhows, it was quite a sight to see meteors flying brownian motion. :D subsequently, continued with my day driving. super duper tired. had to eat 4 tubes of mentos (coke flavour, mint, lime and grape) and a packet of kopi-gaO. and did umpteen times of "bottles up, caps off, one full water bottle drink up" punishment for dozing off. hahaha..effective. kudos also goes to my instructor who never seems to fail to speak hokkien and make me laugh.

this frieday is my parking test!! :) a bit confident that i'll pass with a pb:P haha. i'll never forget to always rely on The Almighty Father! :):) hope shopping was fun today!

THIS IS MY 100th POST. :) speech. "many thanks to all my readers, whom i've no idea who, for reading my posts. i hope that my frankness and accounts of my life's happenings has brought you a step closer to loving God. In God I Trust. amen." :):):)

God is wonderFÜLL! :):)

YAYYYY!!! i [P]assed my highway situational test!! entirely by God's grace. this is yet another work of God:) the butterflies inside my stomach were halfway-metamorphosising into giant vampire bats, ready to suck every ounce of blood out of my veins. surely i know at that current state of mind, i would have passed out upon pushing the door of The Room. so as always, i inhaled an above-averaged amount of oxygen and exhale to squeeze the bats. i prayed to entrust the test unto His hands, not matter about the results, a calm heart and mind and for me to exhibit what i've learnt. the bloody bats returned my blood and perished at the thought of Him slaying. i resumed eating my not-so-hot dog bread. :)

later heading to science centre with my army friend to catch the Leonids meteor shower at 10pm:) kinda excited! :):) not exactly the ideal person to go with but i appreciate his company:) plus i'm home-alone:(:( i feel so deserted. :( *slays the ant crawling in my way of typing.

15th.

finally i can post a post:) super laggy broadband. didnt go for Da Zu today. coz felt the need to lightning bolt back home to practise for my tues' test. spoken situational test! something like.. "i am approaching a uncontrolled junction with a side road on my right. i am making a right turn so i signal right. rear view mirror check. beware of any vehicles following too closely behind me. slow down. left, right mirror check. beware of any motorcyclists squeezing in on my left and right of my vehicle. beware of any vehicles overtaking me from my left into my lane going straight or making a right turn. confirm safe! proceed with caution." this is only step one. HAHA! i'm serious. and there are multiple of multiples of situations i've to remember. how to pass like that?! my family and relatives going for a short vacation to malaysia from tonight till thursday. which means i've got the CAR!!!! muahahaha...but...means...no homemade food unless i cook myself which will incur alot of wastage, sweep and mop the floor, 'magic clean' surfaces of the tables and doors and the decibels in the house will drop to an all time low.

i think i'm going to bring a skate scooter tomorrow. :) and yes! i've got xinjie's head stuck with the song "i gotta feeling" by black eyed peas..haha. i think it brings good vibes. haha. jiduxiaoxingxing's kids are interesting! especially timmy (qi qi's bro) intelligent and out-spoken boy! got lamed with him. L still dont want to tell me when is the day!! :(

pray for a healthy body, obedient heart and most importantly trust in him. :) feel free to text me if you guys have got any prayer requests! :) i'm willing to pray for you.

zZz. friday the 13th:)

i snoozed off while driving today. :D totally didnt expect that to happen. thankfully i was driving the simulator:):) got verbalised big time by my instructor through the speaker located at the top left corner of the jeep. i could even hear the others in the background ROFLol. joker of the day. loserish. next week is my next test...ohh mans..theory instructor said, "andrew, kilat one lah. i think he's jeep only hope of passing this highway situational test." i looked at him and "ha..HA.. sir dont tickle me leh." next thing i know i've done 20 push-ups. :S i'm soooo not prepared for the test LAH!

i need a good rest. goodnight blog. :) thanks for hearing my blabble.

red bull gives you wings!

mental tireness has waged its war!! :O:O! must fight to stay awake!! awake!! its been a week plus since this course started. and i'm beginning to feel my energy beginning to be sapped too fast. half a day of lectures followed by half a day of driving..everyday. its fun but without energy..where can feel the fun?!?! my instructor's name is Mr Tan K. S. he's bald, doesnt speak english and he favours me alot. coz i gives him the least problems. model student! hahah!

I SCORED IN MY THEORY TEST!!!:D:D whee! next up, is my situational test. mode of conduct isnt written. its spoken! hahaha..quite a change. but i like;)

guess who's coming back soon?? hee. :):):):) jiayou for tmr's paper!:) all you need is trust.

just lonely:l

without my heart and soul. distracted. restless. this was how i entered the place of God today. my church. :( a sanctuary which i always regarded. has been broken this time. throughout the day, i felt alot. i questioned myself, "have i really progressed as a christian?". listened to preachings. helped out in sunday sch. read the bible. aca seldom. i inched forward. today weifang laoshi played a video in sunday school abt this person (nick vujicic) who was borned without limbs. he shared about how grateful he was to God. it was amazing how much faith and yearning he has for God. then i looked at things that happening around me. my cell group for instance. amidst all the hanging out, did we really sincerely take the effort to ask how another was doing? especially the newer ones then follow-up with showers of prayer..i'm guilty. truly i am. ashamed. or the other people in church.

when i heading back on the bus, a stranger helped a blind unto the bus. the blind felt his way to the sit facing me. i observed him for awhile. he was in his sixties carrying a black bag and his cane. upon sitting down, he folded his cane instinctively and hid it beneath his bag which was on his lap and slept leaning on the window. why hid his cane? soon i appeared to me that he seemed insecure of his surroundings. he didnt want any to know that he was blind so that he could not be taken advantaged of. it was saddening to see something like this. how lonely and insecure he can be.

i realised that we shldnt be asking God, "why are we made this way?" or "why wouldnt you give me this or that?" but rather the question God is asking us is, "do you trust in me?" and when we say "yes" to that question, nothing else matters. :)

and this is my peace.

saturday:)

woke up really early today. :S today was abit different. since it was a saturday, the usual free ride down to c-am-p was not entitled. thus i drove down. the snoring neighbours to the barren traffic on a saturday morning. how ironically peaceful. its inversely proportional. haha=D all was well when i arrived at the gate. "boy, ur pass leh?" he asked. "ohh uncle nah." i said. "ehh..le a buay sai park ze dao. tao seng." he replied. "harr... orh... wa bo coupon leh? le wu bo?" my attempt to converse in hokkien. "wa bicycle chia" he miming himself cycling. HAHA! super funny sia..so i U-turned and parked outside and bought 2x 1hr coupon from balding random person. went for the driving simulator lesson which contributed alot to my headache. lesson ended. walked out to my car and found myself with a $10 parking fine. :O ... :S ... :/ those were the expressions. took a closer at the ticket, "1008hrs". 8mins more only leh! sure is a fine city. then i looked up ahead...guess what? there she was. lady in her white uniform and blue hat holding her ticketing device determined to slay every driver along the stretch of road. argh. :(

:) more memorable was the gate uncle. hokkien level +1

late nights fever:D

350! 350! 350! i'm going bonkers over doing these questions!!~ its a vicious cycle! after the day's lesson, i rush home (1hr plus), clothes in laundry, bath, eat late dinner and start the 350qns. :S and wake up utterly early to head down. this is bad. i enjoy sleeping. it puts the body in shutdown mode. no thoughts, no actions, no disturbance. <5hrs is just dangerous, according to the risk-assessment of our body.

i'm going to 'ti-kam' my answers. :) that's what i'm going to do.

start of a new day!:)

HOO-YAY!! GOOD MORNING~ :):) and i'm off to my course=D looking forward to go for BSF! :D and i feel accomplished finishing the 350questions last night. here comes another 350 today! *sucks in a deep breath:X*

prayer requests! pray for mental strength to go through the lectures, love and patience for both the teacher and student and bless today to be a God-pleasing and fruitful day!! :):)

p.s: yesterday the barber told me, "you handsome but must trim off the whiskers lah!" heehee..my head bloaaaaaated. :P