stuck and confounded :(

i found out that i have only 4 days of leave. thus i had to make the decision to do a last minute withdrawal from this year's miming. i felt really awful and confounded. i've become a liability to the miming team due to my sudden withdrawal. I didn't wish for this to happen. I've got to serve when duty calls. but who is my master?

"Father, you know i've got a situation i'm stuck and i'm perplexed by the situation i'm in. I want to serve you! I want to! but i'm tied down by restrictions. I need your help God! untie the knots for me and make this string of life smooth again. :) i'll trust and obey. take my cares away Lord. amen"

here's my last burst of energy!! WAAAHHHHH! Ö

my last burst of energy :D

week 7 is over and i'm into week 8.

fatigue, mentally strained, blisters, foot rot, mosquitos' kisses.

here's abit of how my mosquitos' kisses came about. we were told to sleep on the bare field. scouting around, there were a few rain trees. here and there. my buddy and i decided to sleep under one of the larger rain tree, in case there were to be a downpour. true enough, CAT 1 rain. we were grinning in our sleep. knowing the others are out there probably frantic and a little pissed. haha! next morning, when my buddy and i woke up, we were stunned. he was covered with mosquito bites from head to toe and me on the butt. then we realised that if man need shelter to hide from the rain, MOSQUITOS DO TOO! :D laughing point of the week.

pray for the mental strength to overcome the physical barrier and God to pull me through. :))

a breath caught :)

seeing those familiar faces of people who have somehow imprinted their footprints in my life was a pleasant sight to see and a checkpoint that i'm home. rum & raisin ice-cream. my 'chui' piano. church friends. my bed. family. wonders of God's creations.

left my handphone and wallet back there. i felt free. non-dependant on fast wizardry of technology. just the simple old fashion mouth to mouth talks. :) this sudden declination pace of life enabled me to take a closer look at things around me. God. friends. nature. structures. food. gadgetries. a thought then came. "i'm blessed." that's all i have to say.

3 more weeks. :))

"Father, thank you for giving me yet another break to see the little wonders of life. the ice-cream break was great. the catching up with my brothers and sisters was even better. time well spent i must say. here's my prayer requests to you Lord, to guide me through my sit-test, to love the people there and to cast my burdens unto you. amen"

"I believe there is more." :)

closer to nature :)

hoorah! :D i've survived the wild. and i'm back. ... with truck loads of love from the mosquitos', burst blisters from the treacherous terrains and rashes from mother nature. words wouldn't have the same weightage as what i've experienced. but a good brief summary, "it wasn't enjoyable but it sure was an experience of a lifetime." :)

spent some quality time with my family. drove a little. played piano a little. rest alot.

ohh and i lavished myself on Don Moen's latest album, "I believe there is more". feel free to ask me if u want to ....... (u know what i mean) ;)

*scatches a little*

24hrs :)

standing there for 24hours showed me God's wonderful creation of this world. from sunset to sunrise. from the scorching sun to the chilly gale winds. i stood there. enjoying the best views i've ever seen. picture perfect at every moment. all that was short was a camera. :D

a timely note :)

"i've to make it for 2nd service by hook or by crook...by hook or by crook." this was all i could think of. standing at the cross junction hoping for a willing cab to pick a desperate man. I needed God to sustain me. to keep me rooted. Today's sermon was a timely reminder. To be a s.o.l.d.i.e.r and a servant of God would be to love God ABOVE ALL ELSE and fight the good battle. the question was "are you willing to pay the price??" To be hated, scoffed at, berated, ignored to a point where you feel like igniting from the churning frustration built-up inside you. There is nothing you can do but to keep a level head and stand steadfast in the deluge of negative emotions.

i'll be away for 2 weeks this time. out in the wild unknown.

"Father, thank you for keeping my every stride safe so far. forgive me for relying on my own ability instead of yours at times. or a little more. for the coming 2 weeks, i'm giving myself to you wholy. unrestrained. i need you Lord. carry me once again. amen."

a little care and concern :)

the curls look great. :D i hope all is well on your side.

week three :)

"BOOM!" a low bassy sound rung and shook my entire body. i never felt so good and fearful at the same time. but the experience of throwing THAT was a one off.

"Father, i'm going back in again tonight. i pray that you'll remind me to be still and know that you're God. This week will be a little more dangerous, a little more demanding. i pray that protection will be granted and obedience is observed at all times. thank you Father. amen."

Stand by faith i am in Jesus Christ. I shall not falter for i know i'm in good hands.