tears apart :..)

there i was. stood transfixed. like a deer staring into a pair of oncoming headlights. ((OO)) the sight of her brother purging every ounce of bitterness from his heart and out through his tears. a long drawn out sob, that hics and heightens into a wail then simmers back down to a moan. attached he was to his beloved sister. all i could do was to give him a firm grip on his shoulder and allowed him to relinquish his bitterness (which includes mucus and tears) unto my shirt. that was the least i could do..i guess. everything was happening soooo rapidly. or maybe i was retarding, lagging, trying to find an equilibrium for my chaotic processes of thoughts and feelings. normal people were tearing and abnormalities like myself just had to put up with a suppressed, constipated look. waving goodbyes were the hardest. i reacted anyhows. despite having yet to decifer the codes in my head. returning home on yongen's car, i begun searching deep within all the muss. first msg to the brain came up, "Rae is flying tonight!" then the next, "She's probably on the plane right now." reminiscing the past times we shared. the joyful ones and the painful ones. all through thick and thin. i teared. it was the kind of sadness that takes your knees out and off from right under you or a hit so hard on the chest that you can hardly find breath inbetween gasping and choking. create as many wonderful memories as you can, dont stop loving and forgiving coz you only have one lifetime. i'm going to miss this sister of mine. rae.

ps: CIP terminal was of such grandeur and splendor can! :D i felt like a 5year old boy running all around exploring my new house. :) never never land it was. gym. 5nap rooms. 2 international phone booths. 3osim massage chairs. minibar. 3 tv rooms. 6 toilets with shower heads. plus spa massage services which cost $250 for 45mins. :D

"Father, please carry rae in every step of the way and remind her to keep you close and ziplocked to her heart always. thank you for yet another day blessed. amen"